Without A Trace

Chapter 2

Disclaimer: see first Chap.

Reita's Pov

When I walked into rehearsal I knew it was going to be tough. Especially when kept stealing glances at me throughout it, he probably thought I didn't know. I stole glances at Ruki when he wasn't looking at me. I knew what I did was wrong; breaking it off with him was possibly the most hurtful and painful thing I could've done however I did it to protect Ruki. It doesn't benefit me I'm just as hurt as he is but his life was threatened I couldn't do anything.

I watched with sad eyes as Ruki silently slipped out the room, hanging my head with the guilt that is buried deep inside is surfacing. I waited until Kai announced rehearsal to be over, I practically rushed home. I worry over Ruki, he could easily fall back into cutting and I really hope he doesn't but I know Ruki and he probably will. I sigh I wish I never broke up with him but I had to, I don't even know how his father found out about us we kept it so secret that no one knew so how? Did he have spies everywhere? Who knows I certainly don't.

Flashback

It was a week ago and I was out with Kouyou doing some shopping. Well he was the one shopping; he wanted to buy something for Aoi for their anniversary. Kouyou was window looking when a man came up to me, bumping me to the wall. Of course Kouyou was oblivious to all of this, the man leaned in close and whispered threatening, "I know you and my son are together, and I want you to break it off and if you don't I will hurt my son's life, ne?" I nodded too shocked to do anything. He let me go, walking off.

"Akira, you okay?" Kouyou asked, holding a little bag.

"Mm, yeah just fine." I nodded. We walked back to my house, out the front was Ruki fiddling with his shirt. Kouyou said his goodbyes and went home,

"Hey babe, what you doing?"

"Nothing, I just wanted to see you." I could tell that Ruki was lying and that something was wrong but I wasn't about to push it. I opened the door at let Ruki go through,

"Are you sure that there is nothing wrong?"

"Etto, yes I'm sure I think."

"You think?"

"Yeah"

"I see, did your father talk to you at all."

"No, why?"

"No reason."

"Tell me"

"No"

"Why, because there isn't anything to tell." I could feel the guilt and pain rising inside of me for what I am about to do.

"Ruki, there is something."

"Nani?"

"I can't keep going on with you, I want to break up."

"Why? Don't you love me?"

"No. I never have." I'm so sorry Ruki, I do love you. I was made to do this I'm sorry.

Ruki started to cry.

"Why? There has to be a reason, we have been dating for over seven years Akira. SO DON'T TELL ME YOU DIDN'T FEEL SOMETHING FOR ME." Ruki ran out of my house crying. I hung my head letting the tears fall, sobs rack my body.

"I'm so sorry Taka." I sob.

End Flashback

There was a knock on the door, on the other side was Aoi, Uruha and Kai. Uruha stepped forward and punched me in the face. I grabbed my face,

"What the fuck was that for?" I groaned.

"That was for Ruki fuckhead." Uruha spat, I looked down in guilt and shame.

"Oi, you can't look down, you hurt Ruki." Aoi stated. I closed my eyes but that didn't stop the tear that fell.

"I know shithead, I'm fully aware I hurt him. I HURT MYSELF ASWELL." I turned away from them.

"What is really going on?" Kai asked. I fell on to the couch with my head in my hands,

"You guys didn't know, we kept it secret for a long time. I don't know how his father found out?"

"Woah slow down what do you mean?"

"You and Ruki were together weren't you?" Aoi spoke.

"Yes, over seven years actually."

"Then why hurt him?"

"Because his life was threatened by his father, I didn't know what to do or how he found out?"

"Why didn't you tell us?"

"Ruki wanted to keep as secret as possible so his father didn't find out but somehow he did."

"Have you talked to Ruki about this?" I shook my head.

"He doesn't know"

"Maybe you should tell him"

"He wouldn't want to talk to me I broke up with him."

"What did you say to him."

"I told him that I never loved him."

"Pshh it's obvious you do Suzuki." Uruha pipped up.

"Of course I do, never stopped. But I did it to protect him from his father because I know how his father can be."

Kai, Aoi and Uruha was silent for a while, we all just sat around my couch.

"Do you think Ruki would do anything to hurt himself?" Kai asked, worriedly. I was lost in my thoughts of Ruki hurting himself.

"Knowing Ruki, like I know him there is probably a chance that he would." I replied. Kai nodded sadly.

"What should I do Kai?"

"I really think you should talk to him about all of this."

"He won't listen, I know he won't"

"He might if you try."

"Whatever, can you guys leave I need a moment with my thoughts." They leaved and I broke down, throwing things all over the place. I walked into the bathroom, and punched the mirror blood ran down from my hand and glass in my hand. I cleaned my hand, getting the glass out and bandaged my hand. I slide down the wall of the bathroom still crying my breaking heart out.

"Maybe I should take Kai's advice in talking to Ruki. Mmm." I whisper.

I hurt Ruki, so in turn I'll break myself down even more.   

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