Silent , unspoken words

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Everything is over! This was the end, the end of everything. But i never thought that this end would cause me so much pain. And to think that once i wanted this to happen, I wanted him to give up on me.  Stupid girl , how could I wished for  something like that?  I think that now I am paying for my stupid wishes . He did give up on me .

I can't blame him for that, he did tried. Tried so hard for me to be his, tried to win my heart. He tried to be everyone  i needed . He was the shoulder where i could lean on, the warm hug wich always made me feel better , he always tried to bring the smile on my face . For me he was the best friend, the brother I never had and the ideal one. But i was too stupid to understand at that time, to blind to see how much he loved me. My eyes and heart belonged to another , someone who never loved me like i loved him, like i never loved the one who was loving me so much. I never saw his efforts till it was to late. He gave up on me. He decided to gave his heart to someone who was grateful for all the love he was able to give.

As the saying goes you never know what you have till you lost it... now I understand how lucky i was to have his heart but i was stupid enough to lose it. And it hurts, it hurts to see hem kissing and huging another. It hurts to see him giving her all the love I needed but never accepted.

I wish them happienes, I really do, they deserve it ......But i can't act like I'm happy. No when I know that he gave up on me. No when I see him giving her the love which once was mine