Silent , unspoken words

remembering again

Tonight suddenly your face come to my mind. I didn't want to think about you tonight I swear but I was listening to an old song and somehow you came into my head without even asking. It's been 2 years since i last saw you, I Haven't heard from you since. Life has moved on and your memory was buried somewhere in the back of my mind only to be freed again today under the soft sounds of a song. I caught myself thinking again about your eyes, your smile and my heart started aching again. It was only one weak memory of the wound my heart once was but it still burned to the point tears filled my eyes. As the memories of you filled my head I started to think how could it be . How could it be if you cared. I felt so much for you, you were in all my daydreams and you were the one for which I created all those illusions before falling asleep every night. But you never noticed. You never noticed how my eyes shined at every glance of you and my heart beat like crazy every time I saw you coming. You never noticed, you never cared, in your eyes I was just a girl you knew. I guess that's why I chose not to wait and hope that someday you will feel something. It would be like waiting for rain in the middle of a dessert , pointless and I would have destroyed myself if I kept holding on in that feeling . You see I don't wait anymore for you, even that today I missed you, I don't want you anymore. It's better this way.