Don't Take Suicide As A Joke

Rant #1

Firstly, suicide isn't a fucking joke, so don't go around joking telling people "kill yourself" for many reasons.
One being, that person could actually go home and kill themselves, they just needed that last push, and you gave that to them.
Also, you don't know what that person goes through everyday, they could be struggling with finding reasons to live and you're telling them to kill themselves and pushing them closer to the edge.

Suicide is in no way, shape, or form a joke. Don't tell someone to kill themselves and then laugh like you were joking because even if you say it as a joking matter, they could take it for real and next time you hear of them, it's about them commiting suicide.

How would you feel? Knowing you pushed someone to kill themselves.

Would you be able to live with yourself after that?

What if you're in their possible suicide note, saying you're the reason they were doing it?

Did you know that you could be charged by telling someone to kill themselves? And if they actually do it, there's deep consequences for it.

I'm not trying to control anyone's life, I'm trying to help people and I'm trying to help myself.

The reason I even started this was because I'm so pissed off at my cousins and their friends.

Everyday I'm with them "kill yourself" never fails to fall from one of their mouth's. Whether it be said to me or someone else.

Little do they know, when they tell me that, I go home and think hard about it. I think about jumping off a bridge, cutting too deep, over dosing, and hanging myself way too much for someone my age. And it's sad to say my family is part of the reason why.

Everytime I take aspirin's, I have thoughts about taking the whole bottle and hoping to die.

Everytime I hear about a knife or a blade, I have thought's about getting out my small collection and reopening wounds that have healed and scarred.

I'm such a sensitive person so most of that ends with me sat in my room, crying, blasting music, trying to get the thoughts and voices to go away.

Okay, I'm not writing this to tell my life story, but that needed to be said and there will be lot's of other things being added to this, believe me, this is NOT the last of this book, story, or whatever you want to call it.