"How's school coming along?" My Mama asked me as I sat at the island, watching her cook breakfast.
Between me practically living with KJ, working, or at school I was never at home much to really talk to my Mama. I knew that she probably got lonely sometimes and I made a mental note to visit her everyday from now on.
"School is school Mama. I'm so ready to finish."
Since I was taking classes to be a Child Psychologist, I was only required to do three years. I'm on my third and final year right now and couldn't be more happier. Honestly, I was just ready to finish school and start my career so I wouldn't have to sell anymore and I can give my Mama the big house and the nice car she deserves.
"Just about what 5 or 6 months to go? You can do it baby." My Mama said, placing my plate of food infront of me. She fixed herself a plate and sat down next to me and started eating. We were just catching up and gossiping as usual about her lil church friends until she started to become serious.
"Now baby, you won't ever lie to me right?" She asked me, looking into my eyes. I swallowed hard and nodded.
"Of course not Mama, why you say that?"
"Because Nique.." She trailed off. I sat there, confused.
"Because of what?"
"When I ask you this, be completely honest with me. Are you selling drugs?"
I dreaded the day she would ask me that. I knew my Mama wasn't stupid, I knew that she knew but I hoped that it'd never come to this day. Refusing to lie to her anymore, I just dropped my head and nodded.
"Nique... Why in the hell are you selling drugs?!" She damn near screamed, standing up. I hesistated.
"Mama it's complicated. You not gonna understand."
"Girl I'm older than yo ass, born and
bred in these streets. I understand and know everything about each and every one of these corner's! The first week you started selling, I knew about it. It didn't bother me much because I figured it was a one time thing but no! You still doing this shit Nique! If ion know shit else I know about the game and these streets and they're too dangerous for you."
My mouth dropped. How in the hell did she know so much?
"How did you know?"
"Because I was just like you Nique but I started my freshman year in highschool. I started early at just 14 years old. I sold, cooked, bagged, you name it. I know about this shit and all I'm gonna tell you is don't get caught up. I still got my connections and that's how I knew the exact time on the first day you started sellin'. Once you in the game, you can't get out baby. You never lose it and as you grow older like me, someone from your past will pop up everytime. Everytime."
Taking in everything my Mama just said, I was shocked. How in thhe hell didn't I know this?!
"But how? You're a Christian woman and-"
"What's that suppose to mean? Everyone has a past baby, good or bad. I turned my life over to God and changed for the better. Now, I'm not going to control your life because you're grown and very capable of making your own decisions but I want you to just think about you and your life before you get to deep into it. You got me?" My Mama said, looking me in my eyes. I nodded slowly.
"Alright baby. Now you hurry before you're late for class. I love you."
"I love you more Madré." I stood up and kissed her cheek before going to my room. I had two classes today and then I had to make rounds with Polo.
