Clouds in the Art

Chapter 1

I wake up and it's super dark, i grab my phone that's on my night stand and click the button to reveal a bright ass light with the time on my lockscreen. 3:00 in the morning? Are you serious? Damn I hate these pills! I got a new perscription two days ago, they make me more energetic to help my "depression". By the way I don't have depression, they gave me calming pills because I suffered from hyperactivity and my parents said "She's too calm now and it's not the pills because she only takes them once a week." Which is a big fat lie, whenever I got happy for the smallest things like winning a game, they would say I need to take my medication, that would be like every day though. Then even if I wasn't happy they would make me take them on a daily basis just to "make sure." Now they say I'm too depressed like what the hell! Anyways these pills are always making me wake up early and then I have nothing to do for the next three and a half hours. I wish I could wake up at 6:30. So I have something to do within the full time between then and the school bus arriving at 8:30. Which is get ready for school and eat. But no, I can't have that fulfillment of a normal morning, I mean my day isn't as normal as it is.

I get up and pick out my outfut for the day and take the time to have a nice warm bath, and hopefully that will make me a little more calm. I run the warm water and start filling the bath tub. While that is doing that i brush my teeth and strip my clothes. Finally when the water is high enough I turn it off and dip into the tub. The warmth tingles my body and I suprisingly fall asleep.

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I wake up to a shreik and I'm shivering all over. I jump out of the tub quickly soaking the floor but I land on the floor onto my side to see my mother looking at me with fear. She quickly flushes down the water left in the bathtub and turns on the hot water and starts to let it fill up while I'm still shivering. I can't think about anything but being cold. My guess is that i fell asleep for too long and the water got super cold.

My mom lifts me up helping me into the tub to warm up. "What were you thinking!" She practicality screams. "How could you hurt us like that! Trying to kill yourself huh?! Drowning yourself in freezing water! Jeez Cass I didn't think this would get any worse!"

An anger builds in me and I yell while stuttering "Wha-what are you t-talking about?! I wasn't t-trying to k-ill myself-f-f!"

"Oh please, stop with the denial! The water was freezing and your nose was just above the water! I know what suicide looks like!"

"B-but I wasn't-"

"Shut up Cassidy! We will talk about this in a few hours!.... you're missing your first day of school and visiting Dr.Gorsh."

I sigh and feel better as the warm water kicks in. I didn't want to bother responding to that. If she says she wants to pay a visit with my doctor then that means she is just thinking about it and I can easily talk her out of it, but if she says the name Dr.Gorsh she isn't going to change her mind no matter what I say. So i just let it go and start to think of a way to explain my mom's over exaggeration without her interupting or lying that what I'm saying is not true, when it always is. Whatever, I kinda don't care about misding school. Let's just hope he doesn't give me new meds or diagnose me with something new.