Yes, I'm a weird girl readers. Do you ever feel to fall in love with someone who you can't love you back? Not because he ignores me, but because he's an idol. Yes! An IDOL. A K-POP Idol. Even though, me, I don't know why I love him so much. He became my ideal guy, and everytime I saw him, my days are completed. He even the reason why my grades are high and he's my inspiration for everything. I want to dance well because of him, I want to sing because of him and I want to talk in Korean because of him. I don't know why I'm like this? Is there any reader who has a feeling like this?
And... Now.... I'm really hurting myself. I know that it's impossible to my idol to love me back, and I know it from the very start. But now! Now and now! I cried, and cried and cried. I don't know if the girl likes him or my idol likes the girl. But everytime I heard or red news about them, I can't stop staring in it and started a tears falling from my eyes.
Last night, I felt it again. I don't know but I frozed when I saw news about the girl giving message to him and how close they are. I keep staring at it, not thinking if my mom will saw me, and I start to cry really bad. Yes! I know readers that all of you think that I'm such a fool and obsessed fan or person, but I really don't know why am I like this.
I hope you can still accept my attitude. I don't know where can I burst my feelings, and this is the only way. I'm really really sorry. I just... love him so much... I really really love him. Thank you for reading this.
Author-nim
