Torn: A Markiplier x Reader Fanfiction

Author's Note

Okay. So I decided to post the first two parts of this book today. I had been holding back from doing it, but I decided I should for the sake of some other things going on.

As some of you may or may not know, Daniel Krye of the Cyndago guys passed away yesterday after being on life support after his attempted suicide. Mark had been posting tweets and posting on Facebook about a situation and only a few hours ago, had announced what had happened. I can't even describe the amount of sadness and grief I feel for Mark and Ryan and Matt. It's hard to think that such a happy person could even think of these thoughts, and then follow through with these actions.

I did not start watching the Cyndago guys up until about a month or two ago, when Mark had moved in with them and started doing more collab videos with them and such. I feel terrible that I never really got to be a bigger fan of theirs. It breaks my heart because I know how much Daniel meant to so many people; including Mark. I feel for the fandom right now. I know how hard it will be to say goodbye to Daniel; and to also have to say goodbye Cyndago in general. I know it's tough. I know that so many people right now are heartbroken by these things. I wish it didn't have to happen. I wish none of this ever happened. It's hard to say goodbye to someone who made so many people smile. It's hard to say goodbye to someone who made so many people happy, while in his own life, he was not happy. It's just hard.

However, this is not all I wanted to say. I also wanted to talk about you guys.

If any of you struggle with thoughts of suicide or depression, SEEK HELP. You are important. You are worth all the stars in the sky, all the grass upon this earth, and all the sunlight that shines upon it. You are amazing. You are just as good as everyone else and you deserve to live. Your life is important. You don't have to fight alone. You are worth so much. You are so precious to this world. God created you for a reason. No matter how hard things get, have hope. Seek help. If you or anyone you know is having suicidal thoughts and/or has depression please get help. Talk to someone. Let someone help you. You deserve to live. You deserve to experience life. Unfortunately for Daniel, he decided that the world was a little too rough for him, and that's okay. But I want each and every one of you out there to know that it doesn't have to end that way. It should never have to end that way. I wish that it didn't end that way for Daniel. So please, get help.

1 (800) 273 - 8255 - This is the National Suicide Prevention Hotline. It's open 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. They will not discourage or disrespect you. They will listen to your every word. They can help you in any way they can and I suggest either calling them or checking their website - www.suicidepreventionlifeline.org - if you are having ANY kinds of thoughts of suicide. And if you would like, I have made a business kik for Wattpad only- @ briannex3wattpad - and you can talk to me any time you would like. Feel free to kik me whenever, and I will try my best to talk to you and help you in any way I can.

Remember, you are worth the world. You are. So live your life. Don't take those pills, don't aim that gun, don't tie that noose. You have a purpose in this world, and whether you know it or not, does not mean you should end your life. Please don't do it. Live your life. It's not gonna be easy (it never is) but I promise you, that it will be worth it.

Daniel, rest in piece. You're happier and you're in a much better place now. If only you could have stayed a little longer, maybe it wouldn't have ended this way. To Mark, Ryan, Matt, and the rest of the Cyndago fandom; I give my heart, my condolences, and my apologies for your loss. He will be greatly missed and he will be in each and every one of our hearts every day. I pray that the grief will be a little more bearable. I pray that this doesn't happen to anyone else. I pray that each and every one of you lives on at least one more day.

I love you all. Please stay safe and God bless.

- Brianne @ _briannex3_