Once harry let me go I felt out of breath. I tried to make up words but I couldn't. But at that moment I knew I liked Harry and I knew Harry liked me but my mind wasn't clear enough to be sure if I should have a boyfriend or not.
My head was down looking at my bare feet. I felt Harry grab my hand and rub on my knuckles,he then brought my had slightly up and laid a soft kid on the back of my hand. It amazed me how big his hand was compared to mine. I quickly pulled my hands away and put them to my side. I saw annoyance build up in Harry and he looked at me straight in my eyes,he then opened the door and walked pass me coldly bumping into me whit his shoulder. I heard the door slam and I was alone in the room.
I slightly leaned backwards and let my back hit the wall and slid down I brought my knees to my chest and leaned my head down holding back the tears but nothing was going to prevent them from coming out Harry was being so kind to me ever since I met him and all I was doing was preventing him to do anything. I just couldn't bring myself to it,no matter how much I wanted to kiss Harry I wouldn't,no matter how much I wanted to hug him and be whit him I couldn't because I was to scared of getting to close to him or anyone to the point where I need him whit me all the time to the point where if I were to loose him one day I won't want to se the light of day anymore and that is the whole reason why I can't and won't bring anyone close to me. But trying to keep myself safe and regret ever getting hurt is to much to ask from this world because the world and life will move on and you will never know how much something means to you until it's gone.
I sat there thinking and crying for a few minutes until my head shoot up to the sound of knocking on the door
"Natalie...can I come in?"
I hurried and stood up wile trying to wipe the dried tears from my face, I turned to the door and quietly let the words slip out of my mouth
"Um....yeah...come in"
I heard him open the door and I saw him look straight at me whit a look of sadness and concern,I saw him step closer to me and and I forced myself to stand in place. I slowly tilted my head up to look at his beautiful face....
"Harry I'm sorry.." I said wile moving closer to him and letting my arms wrap around him embracing him close to me as if he would have disappeared if I hadn't
"What's..wrong" he said wile slightly pulling me closer into him whit one of his hands at the small of my back and the other in my hair
I pulled back still in his embrace and looked up at him trying to get rid of the tears that were about to slip out
"I'm sorry...I don't mean to frustreight you or get you mad..." I said in a weak voice
I felt his strong arm loosen in my hair and make its way to my face...he quickly wiped the tears off
"It's ok..don't worry..just let me be whit you and let me hold you and make you feel safe" wile he said this his hold was getting tighter
"I promise I'll be good to you" whit the words coming out of his mouth I really felt like Harry cared for me
"Pleas....just don't hurt me that's all I ask,I'm scared of being hurt more..it's to much for someone to handle" at that moment I felt like we were the only to people on earth I knew now that to Harry I wasn't just another girl that he would just use for his pleasure
"Kiss me" I said not even realizing I had just let those words slip out
Harry didn't hesitate he just went for it but not in a rough way in a soft way in a passionate way a way that took my breath away he brought my body closer to him and held on to me wile rubbing circles on my cheek whit his thumb I felt are lips moved in perfect sync
He broke the kiss when I opened my eyes,the tears started flowing down my face again
"What what's wrong" he said wile holding me closer
I looked up at him and softly smiled
"Nothing everything is fine.everything is perfect"
He leaned down and lightly kissed my nose
"Just perfect" he said,and I just stood there and held him closer to me and i closed my eyes and let what had just been the best and only kiss of my life sink in
