An Array Of Dissapointments

Chapter 3

Disarray's POV
I woke up drenched in sweat gasping. I was disoriented. There was whispering all around me. I looked around trying to focus on where I was. "You're in class" I thought to myself before someone wrapped their arms around me. I was already panicking but that just made it worse. I froze up fearing what would happen next when I heard whispers in my ear. "Shhh. You're okay. Calm down Awry." The person holding me said. I realized it was Jeremiah & I wrapped my arms around his neck tightly & buried my face is his shoulder. He picked me up & I started protesting a little. "Stop. I'm gonna take you to clean you up some." He sternly told me with a hint or worry in his tone so I wrapped my legs around his waist. "Thank you..." I trailed off looking at my hands & fidgeting once he put me down on the counter in the trans bathroom. He grabbed my hands & I looked at him. "Bad dream?" He asked. I nodded in response. "I'm sorry." He said before he kissed my forehead. I sighed in content & he pulled away to wet some paper towels. "Better?" He questioned as he started dabbing my face. I nodded. Once he was finished he stepped back & noticed the pools of sweat on my shirt. A few tears slipped out of my eye. Before I could wipe them away he took his thumbs & wiped them away. "Stay." He told me as he left the bathroom. "He left you, you idiot. You were crying too much. & Then all of your sweat made you look worse. & God. You looked like a monster from your eyeliner before he washed it off." I mumered in frustration to myself. I hit my arm not thinking & cried out in pain but quickly covered my mouth. I looked down at my arm to see what was happening & I could feel the blood from freshly opened cuts. I grabbed some wet paper towels & went to one of the stalls. I took out some bandages & gauze from my back pack & went to work bandaging my cuts. I wiped the blood off my arm, put on the bandage & wrapped the gauze around the bandage just so it'd catch the blood if it tried slipping out more. I tied a little knot on the gauze. "Awry?" "Jeremiah." I thought to myself hearing the nickname he made just for me. "Coming sorry. I didn't want people looking at me when they entered.." I said pulling my sleeve over the bandages. "That's okay." He reassured me as I stepped out of the stall. "Come on." He said putting his arm over my shoulder. I tucked my arm against my stomach & we walked out if the bathroom. "Where are we going?" I asked confused. "Is there anything you need before we leave? I'm taking you home." He told me & added hurriedly when he saw my face turn pale. "My house. Not yours." I relaxed & shook my head. "No I don't need anything." I told him. We walked to his car. He held the door open for me then got in the drivers seat. I checked my phone when it vibrated twice. I checked the first one.
Mother.. :
You're a fucking bitch you know that? You ungrateful bastard. Always telling me you hate me but you never say thanks mom for what you do. No it's always about you. Fucking all the time.
I sighed. & Checked the second one.
Nicole:
Where are you? People are whispering about how you ditched class with Jeremiah after you woke up & started crying. Are you okay? Do I need to leave school?
I thought about my answer then typed it.
Me:
I'm with Jeremiah. Yeah. I ditched class with him bc I was panicking & I just needed time away. I'm okay. Just stay at school okay? I'm gonna hang out with Jeremiah for the rest of the day at his house so I'll be safe. No need to worry. Okay? Love you. ❤
Less than 10 seconds go by & she texts me back.
Nicole:
Okay. Try & calm down. Ill swing by after school. Love you too.
I put my phone in my pocket & look over at Jeremiah. "Don't worry. I'm okay. That was just Nicole worrying about me." I assured him. "Your Mother texted you too though..." He trailed off. "She's being a bitch as usual." I shrugged then asked, "Have you eaten yet bc I'm starving." "Thank God. I thought I was the only one." He told me laughing then looked over with a serious face. "I need to ask you a question." "Oh God. Fuck. No. Stop. I did something wrong. Fuck." I thought to myself. "Yeah?" I asked shakily. "Nicole said that you needed to swing by Ezekiel's house right? So I was wondering if maybe you'd like for me to drop you off at your house so you can get your car & Bast since I know you don't like leaving Bast alone with your Mother for too long, & we can go to my house, drop off Bast since she'll be safe there & my car then we can drive over to Ezekiel's house in yours. I'm not letting you go into your Mother's house alone of course but, I don't know. It was just a thought..." He asked. I stared at him & said, "You just want to do that bc of Bast huh?" I asked faking a hurt look. "Yeah." He said cheekily. I started laughing really hard. "Okay." He smiled & drove to my house. Once we got there I got out & unlocked the door. Jeremiah followed behind me. I walked down the hall & up the stairs to my room. "Bast" I called out. Bast came running towards me & started rubbing against my legs meowing. I laughed. "Come on. Let's go." I said as I picked her up & walked out the door as Jeremiah locked it for me. I walked to my car & Jeremiah opened the drivers door for me. "Thanks." I smiled as he closed the door for me while I rolled down the window. I looked over at Bast in the passenger seat already. "Ill follow behind you to my house okay?" He told me. I nodded before he walked to his car & I backed out of the drive way. At a stoplight I got a text & looked down.
Sistaa/Ezekiel:
You coming by after school.
I looked up & saw the light just turned green. I pulled into a 7-11 parking lot next to the light turned off the car & typed out my message.
Me:
No. I'll be over there in a bit though. Less than an hour I think?
She texted me back.
Sistaa/Ezekiel:
Ok.