Em's Book of Poorly Written Poetry

Feelings

Feelings,
Why are they a thing?
Hurt, betrayal, loss, nervousness
All feel toxic and sting
Anxiety and judgment aren't any better
What is the point of feelings if they just make us feel like shit?
However if you take away feelings you're taking away one thing
That is the ability to love you
The smile you put on my face
The way you keep me going
The way you make me happy in the darkest hour
But the thing is you don't know about me
I only know about you
So I sit in my room alone thinking of what could be
Us together us alone held tightly in your arms
But then I come back to reality and you're not with me
The sorrow and despair come back but the feeling of love never fully leaves
I just want to make you happy as you make me
But that will never happen
There are people nicer, prettier, better than me
People who deserve you more than I ever will
Loneliness sets in even though you care
I know you care even though you don't know me
Feeling,
Why are they a thing?
They're a thing made so I can love you though you will never love me
They're made for happiness, joy and comfort and other happy things
But the people who betray and lie to us, both friends and enemies, bring sadness to me
Also for you I'll keep on
Feeling
So I sit here with a broken smile that will never fully heal
Wanting happiness love and peace
Wanting your arms around me though it will never be
I'll try and stay strong for you my motivation