back to boarding school (sequel of Boarding school Phan)

Goodnight love

Phil's POV
I waited impatiently in the waiting room my hole body was shaking.
I was honestly terrified out of my mind my heart was beating 100000099 times a minute as I waited expecting the worst.
Soon a nurse came through she looked boring and dead but it's understandable I wouldn't be happy I had to delver bad news on a daily basis either.
"I'm sorry who are you if you don't mind my asking, I do appreciate that you are here but only family is aloud in at this early in the procedure"
"I'm Phil Howell...His husband"
I say pushing my hand under the seat and switching the finger my ring that my mom got me was on
"oookkkk" she squinted at me.
"so I'm sorry to that this patient has broken his neck in the accident and will no longer be able to move below his neck I really am sorry although the good news is he will survive, but perhaps you could shed some light?"
she took me over to her desk.
"patients full name?"
"Daniel James Howell"
"age?"
A/N so by this point I totally forget how old he is so I'm just gunna say a random number lol
"17"
"any allergies?"
"don't think so"
"ok so what exactly happened?"
"well we were on a date and he got him by a drunk driver in the parking lot"he
"ok did you see a license plate?"
"yeah it was ******"
"ok we will get the police involved straight away please go back and wait in the waiting room as we are still not quite ready for you to see Dan yet"

******
2 days later

So I have been sleeping in a hotel across the street because I'm too scared to leave Dan even though I haven't even seen him yet, He's doing extremely well though apparently.
He woke up yesterday for a brief second wasn't totally conscious yet but hopefully today he will as I finally get to see him!
I brought flowers and stuff but I absolutely look like hell from all the crying.
I sat beside hospital bed rubbing his cold,dead,motionless hand with my thumb.
"I love you so much Daniel and I'm so sorry you deserve better then what you have had"

"mmmmm" "I love you to Phil"

"Dan!"    "your-your awake!"
His huge brown eyes open and fell onto mine.
"w-what happened" he said trying to sit up.
"no Dan you can't sit up"
"w-what's happening!" he yelled clearly panicked.
"Dan your paralyzed you got hit by a drunk driver" I speak gripping his hand tighter looking down at my feet.
He started to cry but also some what tried to hide the fact he was upset
"Phil I'm sorry"
"no Dan I'm sorry you have done nothing wrong this entire time when iv just been a complete douche"
He nudged forwards signalling me to hug him and I did as he implied.
"I love you so much"
I cried into his chest.
"I...love...you to" he whispered still crying heavily.

*************************************
One month later

I never left after that only showered once a week in my hotel room
only eat the food from the vending machines.
We told stories of every thing!
we never got bored.
I had to shower desperately so I went back to my hotel for a bit.
On my way back I found a little Chinese shop booth on the pavement.
I went and looked around it the woman was very nice I got Dan a little stuffed llama and some nice yellow flowers.

"hey babe" I say walking into the room
"heyy Hun" I sat down next to his bed and handed him my present.
"oh what's this...awww baby thanks"
"oh you're welcome I thought you have been through a lot lately and you deserve some thing I know it's probably not as big as you deserve but it all I can afford" I slowed down at the end at started to blush slightly.
"it's more then enough" he smiled then puckered his lips for a kiss.

"Phil?"
"yeah?"
"I...never mind"
"no Dan tell me you can tell me anything I promise" I smile kissing his forehead and snuggling into his chest
"Phil I don't like this"
"what?"
"I don't like this, never seeing the light
never feeling the cold air, I'm always in the dark!"
This dose make sense he has been kinda depressed lately and he looks really bad.
"Well we can fix that! remember in October they will give you your wheel chair and then you can come home"
"But Phil I miss the feeling of my feet on the ground, being able to run from my troubles and swim and go on rides at the fair and put my arm around you when you are sad and kiss you and hug you and..."
"Dan I..."
"I want to leave Phil I'm done here I need to move on..." He looked down holding back tears
"I'm sorry" he shakes.
"no Dan" I ball my tears going every where.
"Phil remember Dundee my dog
would you do that for me?"
"no! no Dan no!" I scream running out of the building into my hotel room.

**********
two days later

I wouldn't do it for him but he found a way to do it himself.
I was sat on my couch rapped up in a blanket watching Sherlock when I heard my phone start to ring.

"hello"
"hello is this Mr.Howell"
"umm...yeah it's Phil"
"ok we need you down here now Dan has bit his tongue and choking on his own blood"
"what! his he ok?"
"we don't have a certain answer right now but we will see"
"ok" I hung up and ran as fast as I could down the street to the hospital.

"Philip?" a nurse asked as I barged in
"yes that's me"
"ok please take a seat in the waiting room"
"how is Dan?!"
"it's looking good for him but we are not totally sure yet now please dig down!"
I sat in frustration.
***
the next day

"What the hell where you thinking!"
I yell as his eyes flutter open.
"uhhgg back were started huh"
"Dan no it's gunna work out and you don't have to die!"
"stop lying to yourself Phil don't you understand I DON'T WANT TO SURVIVE!!"
He tried to shift uncomfortably around In his bed showing clear signs of pain.
"Dan what!" I say lifting his arm to see why he was cringing at pain.
I saw a horrible red rash rash.
"oh my god Dan!" I yelled out.
"nurse! nurse!" I scream running to the door.
"yes phil yes what is it" the nurse says trying to calm me down
"it's Dan he has this horrible rash!"
"ok ok we will take a look at it as soon as we can ok"
"no! no! you need to look at it now!"

It was clarified that Dan had bed rash it wasn't that serious but his position would have to be moved every half hour.I left for the rest of the day because I needed some air but I returned that night.

"Phil its past visiting hours"
"I know and I have decided that I will do it for you I know your not happy here and that's nothing I can change so if this is really what you want I will"
Dan had broken his neck in the accident there for with out the special machines he was hooked to he would not be able to breathe.
he gave me a smile and a thank you but I couldn't help but cry lightly.
"awww Phil don't cry please, it's fine I want this I will be happier"
"ok so I'm gunna un hook this machine but you have to close your eyes and relax ok? I love Dan more than anything I could ever love ever!"
"goodnight Phil I will wait for you my brother"
"goodnight"
He squeezed the stuffed llama and within seconds it was silent.