Trap Queen (norminah)

Chapter 11

My confidence wasnt as high anymore. No I didn't believe Zendaya. I would much rather see it happen than for her to just tell me. I still had faith that whatever Dinah was doing it had nothing to do with her. I couldn't shake the possibility out of my mind though. Dinah is oblivious, I dont think she even knows the obvious crush Zendaya has on her. All there was to say, is that now I have my guard up. I was going to be even more observant than before. I couldn't let myself seem insecure. Im captain of the dance squad, I need to be confident at all times. I couldn't especially let myself seem insecure to my squad, the amount of rumours theyd create. Now, I walk with fake confidence, which hasnt been in a while. Quickly, I made my way to the cafeteria to meet Camila as I always do. Thankfully, Lauren was im the gym, so I wouldn't get jealous at how close they were and how close I wasnt with Dinah currently. I saw Camila sitting alone on a table and quickly maneuvered my way around the gross students to the table. As soon as I sat down I gave out a sigh of relief. Camila tore her eyes away from her phone and raised an eyebrow at me.

"What's up with you?"

"Oh, if you only knew what Zendaya told me yesterday."

"The hell did she tell you?"

I spent the next few minutes explaining to Camila what had happened after school yesterday. I can tell she was starting to feel sympathetic towards me that my relationship isnt as close as it used to be. It didn't help that she didnt know what was going on with her bestfriend either. So she couldn't confirm nor deny that Zendaya wasnt spending time with Dinah.

Then, I saw them. Dinah was trailing behind Zendaya as she strode along the cafeteria looking for a place to sit. Dinah sent me a text in the morning saying shed be late, and thats why we couldn't be together. I squinted my eyes to try and trick myself that it wasnt Dinah, but that goddess was her alright. It hurt. It hurt knowing she lied to me to come with Zendaya. Now what she told yesterday in the halls didnt seem so absurd, but believable. Ive been staring so long that Camila noticed and realized what ive been looking at. She placed her hand on my shoulder and gave me a sad smile.

"Hey, im sure Dinah isnt cheating on you, or that she ever will. She spent too much time crushing on you to get over that easily. Plus, she would never cheat on anyone."

In that moment I couldnt do anything but give her a sad smile. I didn't know what to believe anymore.

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The next classes were worse. All I had etched in my mind was the thought of Dinah and Zendaya. What if I dont make her happy anymore? What if she realized that she doesnt love me and I was just a silly crush? By now I didn't care if I seemed insecure, because my insecurity was practically oozing out of my pores. It sounds gross but its true. Now, I had to go through the hurt again, because it was lunchtime and I had to meet uo with the girls.

As I approached our usual table I noticed Dinah was nowhere to be seen. Ally noticed I was close and began to gather her things.

"Im sorry guys but Mr. Willburry asked me to go to the choir room during lunch, have a great day! Bye girls!" And with that she was gone.

At this point I didn't care. All she wouldve been doing was avoid me anyway, and I couldnt deal with that. I sat next to Camila and laid my face on the table. I wouldnt dare put my face on the gross table before, but now I just simply didn't care. I glanced up and made eye contact with Lauren. For the first time in knowing the green eyed girl, she had sympathy in her eyes. Never has she showed a negative emotion like sadness or anger. That made me even smaller than before.

"Just tell me guys. Where is she?"

Camila looked over at Lauren unsurely and glanced back at me.

"Are you sure you wann-"

"Just tell me Mila."

Camila sighed and gave up trying to convince me from asking.

"She said she had to go somewhere with..."

My breath hitched in my throat. I already knew who she was talking about, but it didnt make it hurt any less.

"Spill it Camila."

"She said she had to go somewhere with Zendaya."

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Ive never felt sadness during a relationship before. I didn't even know why I was so sad. As soon as Camila told me, it overwhelmed me the amount of emotion I had. I couldn't deal with it, so I ran out of the cafeteria and got in my car to drive home. My mom saw me ran up to my room, but she knew I wouldnt miss school if it wasnt for something important.

I laid in my bed just staring at the side of the wall. I didnt know how to react. I didnt know what to do. Dinah wont tell me answers, and Ally sure wont either. About ten minutes passed, until I heard my front door open. I sat up and tried to hear who it was. I heard my mom talking with someone, but I couldnt recognize the voice.

I heard footsteps coming closer and closer until my door was opened. It was Dinah. When I realized it was her both happiness and hurt filled my heart. Happiness because it was Dinah, hurt because of what has been happening currently. She looked at me with a worried expression, breathing heavily as if she ran all the way here.

"Why are you here Dinah?"

"Uh I saw you running out of the cafeteria, and when you didnt come back I got worried. So I came here as fast as I could."

"Damn. Have you noticed this the first time you actually have had a conversation with me? Weird. I wonder why?"

"Listen Normani I know the past few days have been crazy but I promise you its a good reason."

"Really? And whats the reason?"

"I cant tell you."

"Thank you, that helps me out a ton."

"Normani please dont do this, Just trust me."

"Thats a little hard to do when youre hanging out with Miss Thirsty."

"Zendaya? Mani it isnt what it seems."

"Oh please then why have you been going to extra practice? And why have you been spending so much time with her? And why is it that Ally cant look in me in the face without looking guilty?"

"I promise ill explain everything soo-"

"No Dinah! I cant live without knowing! We are in a relationship!"

"I know Mani but its hard."

"Mhm Okay I see."

"Stop making assumptions Mani. Id never cheat on you!"

"I dont know what to believe anymore Dinah. Ive never felt so insecure."

Right when I said that, a wave of sadness was evident on Dinahs face. There it was. Guilt.

"Then, maybe this wont work out."

That hit me like a storm. I couldn't believe the next words that came out of my mouth.

"Maybe it wont."

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AN

Damn. Thats some hard stuff
I decided to update THREE days earlier because ive got you guys' backs, kinda

Ps. Sorry