Trap Queen (norminah)

Chapter 13

I spent a total of three weeks practicing for the talent show. My solo was crisp to perfection, and as a senior im most likely to win anyway. Thanks to my grown popularity since freshman year. I did have trouble at first practicing since I kept thinking about Dinah and fucking up, but I learned how to focus on using my emotions to help me, something that is useful to use while dancing in my opinion. Ive distanced myself alot lately and I cant say im used to it. Camila had been the only one ive been seeing and speaking to on the daily, Lauren doesnt really deny her hanging out with me since she knows im in a bad spot still. Hopefully, I wont be in that bad spot anymore, because tomorrow was the day. Tomorrow is the day of the talent show . Tomorrow will be the only chance I have on bringing my relationship with Dinah back to life, and get to the bottom on what started this mess. I havent heard from Ally nor Zendaya, but im hoping it really isnt what I thought.

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I walked to the center of the stage. Camila and Lauren had just been prepping me up and got me ready. Ally, surprisingly, went backstage to wish me luck. She had just sang like it was her last time singing so I knew I needed that luck. It was still dark, and a few seconds later, the lights were on. Spotlight was on me, and I could feel a sudden rush. A rush I always get when im about to perform, I never get tired of it. My head was still down, waiting for the music to start. I didnt know how Dinah would react to my performance, but I sure as hell couldnt turn back now. I clenched my hands into fists and seconds were starting to feel like hours. Then, finally, the music had begun.

Now, I had to give this solo my all.

Im not a queen

Im not a saint

Im not an angel

Sometimes Im wrong

I can be bad

Act like a stranger

But here I am

Just alot of broken pieces

I dont plan

To leave and break your heart

I was already a few steps in, I was trying to rely on myself to not mess up. I couldnt let the emotions get to me.

I continued going along to my planned choreography, knowing well that I was doing everything perfect. The crowd was dead silent, already an achievement to me. It means I really grabbed their attention. I continued, going along to the words of the song.

The chorus was starting to get to me, and I was starting to tear up. I kept dancing, I couldnt let my emotions get the best of me.

The song was already about to end, it was already on the last chorus.

Oh, what if I messed up? Would you give up on us?
Would you, would you, would you...? Oh
What if I told you you're doing fine? Stay cool (stay cool)
Swear I'll make it worthwhile, baby
You should know I'm always falling slow in love (oh)
Slow in love (I'm falling)
Falling slow in love

Right as the last words played, I looked at the crowd for dramatic effect.

The first thing that happened was that I made eye contact with Dinah.

Her mouth was open, eyes wide. It was clear she didnt expect my performance to be this emotional. It felt like we were the only ones there, and I hadnt realized the crowd was still silent, even when the song was already clearly finished.

It was then I realized, I was crying.
I reached up towards my cheek amd felt the stream of tears. I did the first thing I thought of doing.

I ran.

I ran backstage and was immediately met by the arms of Camila. I let myself become dead weight on her small frame. I started sobbing om her nice sweater. Camila began to run her fingers through her hair and start to try and calm me. I couldnt understand what she was saying though. Everything was sort of blurry by that moment. I might be more dramatic about the whole ordeal than I should, but it was Dinah.

And in that moment while sobbing in Camila's arms, I realized I had completely fallen in love with Dinah.

In the middle of my weakest state, after an emotional performance, after making eye contact with Dinah, I had finally realized I loved her.

Then, I heard someone burst in screaming.

"Wheres Normani?! I have to see her!" I can recognize that voice anywhere, it was Dinah.

"Dinah calm down, she isnt doing well right now. " That was Lauren im guessing since I didnt hear Camila speak.

"Shut up Lauren! I have to see Normani right now!"

Dinah was stronger than Lauren, so I figured she had pushed her out of the way already. Camila pulled my head up to look her in the eyes and she quietly spoke, "Its going to be okay Mani, you and Dinah are going to be okay." I smiled at her and hugged her. The door was slammed open, I saw Dinah with her chest heaving up and down. Camila let go of me and stood up, she walked out the door after what seemed like a silent conversation with Dinah.

Dinah was suddenly calmer as she started walking up to me. She sat down next to me, and we stayed in silence for what seemed like an hour.

"You just had a breakdown infront of the entire school, yet you're still the most gorgeous girl ive ever seen."

I couldnt help but smile. Ive missed the girl next to me for so long, and now I can finally bring us back together.

"Tell me the truth Mani, was that performance about us ?"

I sighed, "Yeah, I didnt mean to cry at the end though."

"That was pretty heartbreaking for me to watch, I never want to see you cry because of me ever again."

"I didn't choose that song randomly you know, I actually mean it."

Dinah turned to me. A smile slowly formed on her face while we were looking in eachother's eyes.

She started leaning towards me, and as soon as our lips met it was like heaven. I heard the trumpets people say you heard when you entered. The butterflies in my stomach had awakened , and everything felt like home again. Her lips felt like home. It felt like I had runaway for a long time and had come back home.

The kiss was deep and filled with meaning, as soon as we parted she looked me in the eyes.

"I love you, Normani."

I smiled.

"I love you too Dinah."

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AN
Oh my god. I cant believe I cried while writing this lmao Im such a hopeless romantic. Anyway im so sorry i didnt update the entire month ): I was too busy confessing to the girl I love lmao. Ill try my best to never do it again. The truth about Dinah and Ally will be told in the next chapter.

Btw, How have yall been ? (: