Every Breath You Take (Denis Stoff, Denis Shaforotov, Asking Alexandria)

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My holiday begins tomorrow, I've been packing all day, so here is one last chapter before I leave because there is some exciting stuff going on with AA that I can't announce unless you are a part of our little community. (Ben's instructions.) I'm so excited! Much love, Anon.

Emma-
A few days later we had finally gotten our bus back, and I was back to being able to sleep in my own bunk.

To be one hundred percent truthful, I kinda missed sleeping in the same bunk as Denis. In a way it had been comforting to sleep that close to someone, not that I would ever let him know that though.

"Do you miss sleeping with me princess?" Denis raised his eyebrow at me the next day as we sat in the front lounge.

"As if. Now I can cover up with a blanket because your stupid ass steals them all." I smirked. That was a good cover up.

"Sexy ass princess, my ass is sexy." He winked.

"Whatever helps you sleep at night." I smirked shrugging my shoulders for dramatic effect.

"You help me sleep at night." He winked.

"Do you ever stop flirting?" I laughed.

"Nope." He popped the P.

"Figures." I laughed a bit more.

"I like your laugh." He gave me a small smile. "Singular not plural. You don't do it much."

"Do I really not laugh?" I raised my eyebrow.

"Not much. It's rare, kinda like your smile. I would love to see them more sometime."

Was he actually being genuine with me instead of his usual sassy flirtatiousness?

The real question was had Trevor changed me so much that I was that closed off to everybody?

"Aren't you gonna get that?" Denis's deep voice snapped me out of my daydream.

"Oh uh...." I looked down to see Hannah calling. "Yeah sorry, excuse me for a second." I bit my lip, exiting the bus as I answered the phone.

"Hey sis." I smiled. I loved Hannah so much. We had always been really close because we were only two years apart. That's why I had never told her that I felt neglected as the middle child, I didn't want to damage our bond.

"Hey! How is tour?" I could hear her smile from the other end.

"It's really good actually. The guys have matured a ton and their new singer is gorgeous." I gasped after I said that, looking around to see if anybody had heard my confession.

Did I just say that out loud?

"Someone has a crush!" She teased.

"No I don't. I don't want a relationship after Trev-"

"Trevor. I know that you two broke up. He came by my dorm today to talk about it. He really wants you back sis. He was genuine about it too." She sighed.

"Hannah he came to your dorm?" I couldn't let him near my sister.

"Yeah? Is that a problem? He just was asking me about what you were doing and who you were with." she said nonchalantly.

"Han, listen you have to stay away from him." I said sharply.

"Why? I get that exes are off limits but we can still be friends, besides, he said that your breakup was mutual. I don't see why it's a big deal."

"He beat me Han. He was abusive and that's why I left university." I let a few tears roll down my cheeks. This was the first time that I had said those words aloud.

"Emma, what? How come you didn't tell me sooner?"

"I was ashamed. And I didn't want anybody thinking I was running away."

"Emma running away from something toxic is not anything to be ashamed of. Have you told James?"

"No. Nobody knows, and you can't tell anybody." I bit my lip.

"Em, he's coming to James's gig in York next month. You have to tell him before you all have an awkward run in."

"H...he's coming?" I was paralyzed in fear.

"Yes. I'm so sorry I told him where you were going to be. I didn't know."

"It's okay Han. Just stay away from him and stay safe. I gotta go. The boys are causing a ruckus."

"Okay. I love you, and don't forget to tell James, or else I will."

"Just please don't tell mum and dad." I requested.

"I won't. As long as you promise to someday."

"I will Han. Love you." I said before ending the call and climbing onto the bus where all five guys sat in the front lounge, their attention on me.

"H...hey." My voice cracked a bit.

"Where were you?" Can asked.

"Talking to Han." I sniffled, still not recovered from my crying.

"Have you been crying?" Denis asked, his voice full of concern.

"It's nothing." I couldn't say it aloud to them, I had barely managed to say it the first time, I couldn't possibly repeat such a feat again this soon.

"Wanna talk?" James asked.

"I...uh...yeah."

I couldn't tell the group but maybe if James and I were alone I could muster up the courage to tell him about Trevor.

"Alright." He got up, following me to the back lounge.

"What's up?" He shut the door behind us. "How is Hannah?"

Had we even talked about Hannah? That conversation was centered around me, and I felt quite bad about it.

"She's good. Really likes university and had made a bunch of friends." I nodded.

"That's good. And how are you?" I'm alright. I miss her." I sighed.

"Is that why you have those tears streaming down your cheeks?" He wiped one away.

"N...no. James I have to tell you something." I bit my lip.

"Alright, go ahead." He sat up, bracing for my statement.

I took a deep breath in, before I began to speak.

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A/N: I'm sorry for leaving you on a cliffhanger for a whole week. I'm so mean. I love you all and I'll see you after my holiday!