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//Alex's POV\\
"I don't fucking care!"I yelled running upstairs crying.
And i did it i grabbed the fucking sharper head and cut my wrist.
He took it too far, making me feel shit about the thing with Kyle.
I cut again, and again, and again, and again, watching the red blood stream down my wrist.
I grabbed a tissue and dabbed at the cuts.
I ran into the bathroom and put my arm underneath the tap and plastered up my wrist.
I quickly walked out and into my room, and opened Twitter
I scrolled through my feed for a bit and checked my replies, i could do this for hours, but i knew i shouldn't, so five or so minutes later, i put my phone into my jeans pocket and walked back downstairs, being sure to put a jumper on, to hide the plasters incase people asked, or worse assumed i had cut again.
I started walking down the stairs.
"Hey Alex, what was the shouting about!?"Jeydon asked.
"Oh, nothing much, i got really over emotional on them."I said quickly.
"Oh okay...you okay?"Jey asked.
"Yup."I said trying to sound cheerful, i don't think i convinced him honestly because he then said,
"Really?"Raising his eyebrow.
"Yes, really."I said, putging on a fake smile.
"Okay, let's go sit in with the others."He said
"Sure."I said, having already got to the bottom of the stairs, i hugged Jeydon and followed him into the other room.
"Oh hey!"Everyone said, seeing me and Jeydon walk in.
"Sup."Jeydon said.
"Sorry Alex..."Damon said.
I flipped out, i didn't mean to, i was having one of those days...i yelled.
I pretty much told Damon he was a fat, ugly fuck and he should mind shat he said, at which point, Damon started crying walking upstairs, and Jordan walked after him, giving me an upset look, which is actually worse than him giving me an angry look.
In angry i managed to pull my jumper sleeve up,
The room went quiet.
"Alex....what's that?"Jeydon asked.
I started sobbing.
I told him.
He looked kinda hurt, and that made it worse.
I yelled at him,
"I'm fucking sorry okay!"
"Well you fucking should be!"Bryan yelled, i wasn't expecting him to be angry honestly, but i mean who wouldn't be angry I'm just a shitty fuck up who resorts to cutting, an unhealthy addiction i was supposed to be over, instead of telling people things, like i should, i mean for fucks sake I'm a youtuber with what? At least 100 people who look up to and idolise me and follow my example, and now they'll think it's okay to cut.
Tears streamed down my face and Jeydon and Bryan's expressions changed from anger to apologetic sadness.
Shannon walked forward,
"It's okay Al, we'llget through this."She said.
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An: u g h i always leave you guys on a cliff hanger - ey thing.
Holy shits i just realised we have 3.19k reads like o m f g
i hope i didn't trigger y'all, i mean, i put a trigger warning on so i hope that helped oo
Anyway imma go ilyasm
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