Perrie's Pov
I've been caught up in my room a day after the break up. The media has found out and I haven't seen so much hate comments in my life. I remember hearing about how break ups really hurt. I didn't believe it but now I do because it really hurts. My mom would try talk to me but I push her away. I feel bad because I know she's trying her hardest but I just don't feel it.
I laid my head on the pillow and closed my eyes, trying my best not to play back what Anglina told me when I broke up with her. She hates me. She hates you Perrie. I heard a knock on the door and lifted my head up to see my mom peeking in.
"Please-"
"You have company Perrie."
I heard the door creak and looked up again to see Ashley and Leigh Anne. I turned my head and shivered once I felt the comforters off me.
"You need to get your ass out of bed and stop moping around!"
Ashley.
"C'mon Perrie, we're worried about you."
Leigh Anne.
"Leave me the fuck alone."
Me.
"Do you want me to drag you out of here. No, Leigh, get the bucket."
Bucket? Before I could move, a while bunch of warm water got dumped on me. I gasped and pulled my hair back, glaring at the two girls who just cocked a hip.
"What the fuck was that for!?"
"You smell."
"Just leave me alone, I don't need help."
"But-"
"Ashley, just go, I'll take it from here" Leigh whispered.
Ashley left the room and Leigh Anne found a dry spot on the bed and sat on it. She placed a hand under my chin and turned it so I was facing her.
"I fucked up real bad, Leigh. I just don't know what to do with myself anymore."
"Why did you guys break up?" She asked.
"I love her."
"Love who?"
"Jade."
Leigh Anne's face softened and I sniffled then wiped a tear away.
"I love her. Now she has this other girl and I just want her. I didn't mean to hurt Anglina for her to hate me. I can't help who I love. It was just someone I wasn't dating."
"Why don't you tell Jade how you feel?"
"Jade hates me too. Everyone hates me" I admitted.
"I don't think she hates you, she probably is having a few problems or something."
"I hate myself for causing pain for people. I feel like they're striking back."
"Don't let all of this get to you. It's killing you on the inside and you don't need this right now. All you need to do, is get up and start fresh. Starting off by taking a shower then we can all go out and catch up, ok?"
I attacked Leigh with a hug and she hugged back, resting her head on my shoulder.
"Oh my, you really do need to take a shower. Shoo, shoo!"
I smiled for the first time in a while.
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Ashley, Leigh Anne and I ended up going to play a game laser tag. Ashley told me it would help take all my anger outcomes which it did and I'm glad I went. Going out made me feel much better and I forgot about everything that happened. Maybe at times like these, I do need them to comfort me.
