Leave A Scar. (Tommy Joe Ratliff Fanfic)

10. Baby pt 1

Tommy paced around his room while waiting for Shilo to return. Adam and Sauli left to go get dinner, leaving Tommy alone.
Tommy heard the front door open and close again and footsteps coming up the stairs.

"TJ?" Shilo's voice spoke, she emerged from the hall way, walking into the bedroom.

"Why the fuck are you leaving?" Tommy yelled, he hadn't meant to yell but he was angry and confused.

"I need to go back to Toby, Thomas." She spoke sternly. Tommy's heart shattered.

"You only just got here and now you're going back?" Tommy spoke hurt.

"I'm pregnant, Tommy." Shilo blurted. She wasn't going to tell him but it was in the heat of the moment. She didn't want to go back to Toby but the baby was clearly his... It had to be.

"How far along?" Tommy asked, any hope of getting Shilo back was just ripped away from him.

"A day, two maybe." She spoke quietly, not looking up at him.

"Did you have sex with him? Before the wedding?"

"Tommy! That is none of your business!"

"It is my fucking business because that could be my child for fuck sake!"

"And it could be his as well, Tommy."

"So you're just going to go back to him even though it might not even be his?" Tommy felt a tear glide down his cheek.

"It's a fifty-fifty chance it could be either of yours! Do you even realise how hard this is for me? Having to chose between the man I love and.." Shilo stopped suddenly.

"And what? Me?" Tommy scoffs, shaking his head. "You want to leave, then go!"

"I didn't mean that, Thomas and you damn well know that! I'm not even sure I want to be a mother." She spoke softly, but the tone in her voice was proving she was pissed off.

"You're going to kill an innocent child?"

"I didn't want this to happen, TJ."

"Then maybe you should've thought about that before fucking me!" Tommy shouts.

"That was uncalled for! You want me to leave? fucking fine! I will go!" Shilo shouts, turning on her heel.

Tommy scoffs, following her. "I wasn't the one who came up with the idea! I didn't go 'oh you're pregnant, better go running back to the abuser. Did I?"

"Good-bye Tommy." She snapped, opening the front door. Tommy slammed it shut before she could leave.

"Why did you come back to me, why did you tell me you loved me, only to bash me down like this?" Tommy questions, his heart raced as he looked into her eyes.

"Because I do fucking love you! Tommy Joe Ratliff but right now you're getting on my fucking nerves!" Shilo snaps, glaring him.

"Oh I bet that's not the only things getting on you." Tommy scoffs, opening the door. "You want to leave, leave."

Shilo stares at him before walking off, Tommy slams the front door closed behind her, his breathing intensifies as he starts to have a panic attack.

Before he could do anything, he falls to his knees, he couldn't get any air and the panic attack gets worse.
Tommy collapses onto the carpet, face down as the darkness surrounds him.

*****
Tommy's eyes open slowly, squinting as the bright light shines into his pupils. He groans as he feels his neck ache. He was still on the ground. Shilo was still gone, it wasn't some fucked up dream. He got her back and she just left him like dinner left overs, ready to be thrown into the trash.

"Am I that bad of a person?" He questions to himself as he sits upright. "She...she just left.."

"Tommy!" Adam's voice rang loudly through the house. "I swear to God if you're still in bed I'll drag you out by your hair!" As Tommy's door opened, Adam stood confused. "Why are you on the flooe crying?"

Tommy had to touch his face to feel the tears. Why does he not notice the tears anymore?

"I-i must've um, fell asleep I guess." He stutters as he wipes the tears.

"You guess?" Adam frowns. "What happened? I heard quite a bit of yelling last night."

"She's gone." Was all Tommy could say.

"Shilo?" Adam questions and Tommy nods. "Take your medication and go for a shower."

"I need her, Adam."

"You've survived 4 years without her, I'm damn well sure you can survive longer without her. If she wants to leave, let her because I am not going to let her fuck you up again. I met you when you were drowning yourself in alcohol and drugs, it better fucking not happen again! Now get in the shower." Adam spoke sternly.

Tommy knew Adam was more than right. He can survive without Shilo... Can't he?