Destiny Rose

Rose Petal #5 - Aftermath Effects

I woke up with a heavy heart..

Naguguluhan ako, ang dami kong tanong na hindi ko alam kung saan ko huhugutin ang mga sagot.

Walang maalala si Theo..

The dreams, Sethiel, the little girl

Its like a haywire halo halo wala ako maintindihan.

Should i be happy with it?

Is this really what i want?

"What's bothering you?"

Sethiel is looking at me so intently.

"Ha? Wala." I tried to look away, ewan ko, simula nung napanaginipan ko siya hindi na ako makatingin sa kanya ng diretso, pero may isa akong tanong na kailangan niya sagutin.

"Bakit walang maalala si Theo?"

He looked at me and turn his back "I erased his memories."

"Pero bakit?"

"So i won't see you chasing and begging for him while you're doing all your best to win his back. Its better right?"

Hindi ako makapag salita, tama siya pag naalala niya ang lahat

Iiwan niya ako..

"Pero para ko na din siyang niloko." i said it mostly to myself.

"Niloko mo na ba siya sa pagmamahal na sinasabi mo? Naisip mo na ba siya lokohin? Heck Faith you freaking even trade yourself to me to save his ass and you feel guilty about it? By any chance, if i didn't erase his memories will he still care for you? Will he still be the same man you choose despite of everything?"

I really don't know the answer to that but i love him with all of my heart.

I looked up and face him. "Maybe, I really don't know but i won't leave his side."

I can see frustration in his face, pabalik balik siya ng lakad titingin saken then maglalakad ulit.

"You're a goddamn masochist!" He almost shout it to myself.

I feel anger rising up on me. "Hindi mo ko naiintindihan! Mahal ko siya!"
"That's bullshit! You love him?" Lumapit siya saken at tinitigan ako maigi nakikita ko ang galit sa mga mata niya. "Your wasting your soul to a worthless person."

I slap him, i don't know why pero naiiyak ako. "Hindi mo alam yung sakit. Yung sakit na nararamdaman ko. Hindi mo alam kung paano ko pinipilit ngumiti sa sarili ko kahit alam ko naka kontrata ako sayo, na nakasangla ang kaluluwa ko sayo bumalik lang siya sa dati. Hindi mo alam kung paano ko tiniis ang lahat. Hindi mo alam.. wala kang alam sa nararamdaman ko!"

He looked away, and step back. "I hope you know what you're doing cause from this moment i won't indulge myself with you. From the first place hindi naman talaga dapat."
I cried my heart out when he disappear.

Kaya ko tiisin lahat ng sakit, kaya ko tiisin lahat and if lying to Theo about his memories will save us i'll gladly obligue. I smiled sadly to myself.

I'm selfish..

Its been a week since nung sagutan namin ni Sethiel at hanggang ngayon hindi ko pa din siya nakikita. Balik nanaman ako sa hospital, pwede na siya makalabas kinabukasan.

Sinilip ko muna kung natutulog ba siya pero i found him smiling at me.

"Hi." Pumasok ako at nilapag ang mga prutas na dala ko.

"Hindi ka na dapat nagdala pa, lalabas na ako bukas, and i'm really itching with this hospital gown."

I smiled in my thought "kailangan mo yan no."

He pulled me to sit in his bed so i can face him.

I really love staring in his hazel nut brown eyes

Hinawakan niya ang buhok ko "you cut it."

"Bagay ba?"

He smiled warmly "it suits you nag mukha kang matanda."
Tinitigan ko siya ng masama as he chuckle with my expression.

With my expression..

Kinabahan ako bigla, i'm showing emotions, how could it be possible?

"Faith, are you okay?"

I looked at him with confusion "ah, oo may naalala lang." Hinawakan niya ako and i jerked his hand right away.

Shocked is written all over our face.

Tumayo ako bigla napaso ako sa hawak niya. Its odd hindi naman ako napaso kanina

No one dare to speak and it jump me when the door suddenly open with Kaye.

"Eh? May staring contest ba kayo ni kuya?"

Nakabawi agad sa shock si Theo "yeah, and panalo na sana ako nung bigla ka dumating." While still looking me with confusion i just looked away.

I really need to talk to Sethiel. I stayed and the awkwardness we have awhile ago is gone. We talked about our childhoods, proms, crushes any random topic.

Its almost past 11pm when i decide to go home.

"I'll see you tomorrow." He said while smiling and i smiled back "of course." Giving him a quick kiss on the lips but it startled me making me back out.

"What's wrong?"

I'm gasping for my breathe while looking at him it hurts..

"N-nothing, just can't breath a little."

"Are you sure?" Trying to stand up on his bed.

"No Theo, ayos lang ako."

"Faith, your not okay, anong nangyayari sayo?"

I was about to say something when the nurse came in.
"Visiting hours is already up, please kindly leave the patient room any minute."

I sighed in relief "I really need to go, I swear i'm fine. I'll see you tomorrow goodnight."

Looking defeated he just nod his head.

I'm driving my way back home iniisip ko pa din ang nangyari. Bakit hindi niya ako mahawakan? Para ako napapaso. I sighed parking my car in my garage.

I looked up in the sky, its so clear the moon is up high i can see my shadow. When i turned on the lights in my living room i saw him.

Standing and looking at me intently with his set of dark eyes almost turning red i feel goosebumps all over me on the way he look.

"You've just broke our deal Faith. And I'll punished you."

I gasped as when i see one of the rose petal turning black.

What will happened to me?

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