Today I found out the he has a new girlfriend and that he has for at least a month now and she also goes to a different school yet I still know her because I once went to the very school she does. So by rights knowing her should make it that much more painful but I'm just numb like all I feel is this black abyss of numbness inside.
I remember one of my close friends telling me a few weeks ago: "this is why I gave up on having dream fantasies of cute, hot boys that you wish to one day go out with. They can bring your whole world down in an instant and leave you so comatose with desire for them and pain that he doesn't want you that you are left devoid of life and feeling. And it makes matters ten times worse when they don't even know you exist.
Its just better to give up on fantasy dates its not like its ever going to come true and in the end was it worth trying to love him when he didn't love you?"
So is it worth it? I'm really not sure and I'm starting to go insane with uncertainty. I really need help, what should I do?
Give up, and forget about him.
Keep believing he'll eventually recognize I'm alive.
Or, give in to the feeling of numbness where pain should be and let hell decide what sick 'fate' I'll be given.
I really do need help, anyone , help me decide what I'll do about him before I do something I may or most likely not regret to myself.
So know my close friend is 17 and knows her English to the max (I'm not kidding like A's on nearly all report cards) , and sorry if what she said sounds cheesy but its true and I guess she's weird on a paranormal scale. I just thought you'd like to know. :) <3
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