I woke up and Shawn was next to me and I knew he knew I was awake because she pulled me really close to him and kissed me dead on the lips.
"I love you Jordyn."
"I love you too Shawn."
"Can we try something?"
"Yeah whaaaa..."
I say as Shawn starts making out with me and it felt so good. I started kissing back and he then bit my lip for entrance and I let him in he had full control of me now. He picked me up and put me on my back never breaking the kiss. He started kissing down my neck. He then took off my shirt and kissed down my torso down to my sweat pants band. I look at him and bite his lip and then slip his shirt off of his head. We sat there and stared at each other before he started going down on me.
"Wow,that was amazing." Said Shawn
" I can't even talk it was so good." I said
"So you actually liked it?"
"Very much so Shawn."
Later that day I went to my high school football game with some friends. I went to talk to somebody and this girl called me a thot. I didn't know what to do but I walked away and finished the game. After the game I got into my car and started crying so much I couldn't stop, I got home and Shawn was in the kitchen I threw my purse on the ground and ran up into the bathroom.
I closed the door and grabbed a razor I couldn't believe what I was about to do but I couldn't deal with this anymore.
"Jordyn what happens let me in! "Shawn screamed
"No this is better for the both of us Shawn."
Just as I put the first few slits into my wrists Shawn broke the door and ripped the blade out of my hand. He picked me up in his arms and hugged me so tight and wrapped his shirt around my wounds.
"Baby you didn't need to do this!" He said while crying
"Shawn I just lost my parents and then get called a thot,do you really think I want to deal with this anymore."
"No but you can deal with it you are the strongest person I know and I couldn't bear loosing you."
He took my arm and ran it under the sink and wrapped it up. It was so nice having someone by my side and being there for me when I need him most. God my love for him won't stop growing.
