Johnny ~ My Confidence Is Leaving Me On My Own ~ Christ {Book3}

Johnny Christ ch 1

Britt walked into the living room with a huge smile, Matt followed hugging her around the waist. "Matt!"

"Come on.. You know you want too." he said winking at me. I couldn't help but feel bad.. I was the third wheel in their lives. The only reason I hadn't moved out was because I was still shaken by Britt's Ex-Boyfriend, Mark and I loved living where there was so much happiness.

"Matt don't you want to go see baby Brie?" she asked laughing. Brie was Gwen's two day old baby. Matt sighed nodding as they both grinned at me. "You want to come with us Ali?"

"Sure." I loved babies, they were adorable with their sounds and expressions. I got up following them out the door.

"So Ali, Britt tells me you want to come on tour with us?" Matt asked as we drove to Gwen's house.

"Yeah.. It's just I've been so busy at the bar and grill.. I just need a break.. I understand if you don't want me to come along." I said biting my lip. Britt shook her head as Matt grinned at me in the rear view mirror.

"Your welcome to come with us. Why wouldn't I want you to tag along?" He asked frowning.

"I don't know.." What could I say? I looked away quickly.

"Well Syn is ordering a custom built RV for Gwen, Brie, and himself so you can have his bunk." Matt said.

"This is going to be so much fun!" Britt said rubbing her hands together. I grinned as we pulled up to Gwen's house. Britt and Matt held hands as we went inside.

"Hey guys." Syn said grinning, he was walking around shirtless. "Gwen and Brie are sleeping."

"Alright, want us to come by later?" Matt asked giving Britt a hug around the waist.

"No it's fine if you just want to hang out." Syn said shaking his head. Matt nodded and lead Britt to the couch turning the tv on.

"Hey Ali, how is everything going?" Syn asked walking to the kitchen I followed him.

"Alright.. I guess." I said shrugging as he opened the fridge.

"That doesn't sound good.. Are you still coming on tour?" He asked grabbing a beer.

"Yeah." I shook my head when he offered me one, I had work tonight.

"Then cheer up. It's going to be f*cking awesome." I nodded looking down at my hands. He left me in the kitchen as he went to the living room. I sat down with a sigh.

"That's the joke you idiot." Jimmy said walking through the doorway. He grinned at me before opening the fridge. At one time I imagined loving him but he was just a crazy friend now.

"It doesn't make sense." Johnny said following him. I frowned at him when he grinned at me. Johnny had also been a.. well I had liked his personality but after the women he keeps company with.. I couldn't compete with that kind of experience.

"That's the point short shit it's a joke!" Jimmy said grinning and opening a beer. Johnny nodded grabbing his own beer. Angel had said he was " GREAT " in bed and that I should give him a try. The thought of them together both hurt and disgusted me. I guess I hadn't even looked at him the same.. I shouldn't think so poorly of the dead.. Mark had murdered Angel.. Which only adds to my fears..

They left laughing.. Johnny didn't even say hello.. Not that it bothered me.. I sighed frowning at my hands.

Stacy walked into the kitchen carrying her baby Steph snugly in her arms. I wasn't one of "them" but Gwen, Britt, and Stacy made me feel comfortable being their friend. She smiled getting a glass of orange juice. "Hey there Ali. Why do you look upset?" She asked sitting across from me. I shook my head.. I didn't think she'd understand.. Even I don't understand my own feelings.

"I'm alright. Can I hold Steph?" she nodded handing her to me gently. "She's beautiful." I said smiling and gently touching Steph's cheek.

"Thank you." Stacy said reaching out to flatten a strand of Steph's hair. "She's my world."

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Jimmy's POV

I shoved Johnny onto the couch spilling his beer across his pants. "Haha! Johnny wet himself!" Johnny was frowning towards the kitchen and for once he didn't have a come back.

"Jimmy! You'll ruin the couch!" Britt said laughing.

I shook my head. "Na, still good." Matt laughed too shaking his head.

"Let's just toss Johnny in a dumpster somewhere.. that way he can smell as bad as his mood tonight." I said covering my nose. He nodded with a sigh. Damn something was up with him...

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"I'll have a chicken basket and a beer." I nodded down at the man sitting at one of the few empty tables. Tonight the place was packed..

"Alright, I'll be back shortly." I said smiling. He nodded answering his phone as I went to fill his order. When were they going to hire more help?

"Your table six is up Ali." Ted our new cook said grinning. I smiled taking the tray.. Ted was kind of hinting at asking me out but I just wasn't into him that way.

"Can I get another diet coke?" I nodded as I sat the tray on the table passing out the various orders. I made a quick dash for her soda as I grabbed table ten's beer.

I grinned as Britt walked in with Matt sitting down, they waved smiling at me. "What can I get you guys?" I asked walking up to their table.

"Just a couple beers, how's it going?" Matt asked holding Britt's hand on the table. They were really cute together.

"I'm alright how about you guys?" I asked smiling.

"Well Britt won't let me.." Britt covered his mouth quickly blushing.

"I'll go get those beers." I said embarrassed. I didn't always follow their love talk so I just chose to avoid it. I finished the shift and went home only to find the house empty.. everyone was out back in the pool.. Jimmy, Zacky, Johnny, Matt, and Britt were all swimming in the darkness.

"Hey Ali! Toss on a suit and jump in!" Jimmy said grinning.