Johnny ~ My Confidence Is Leaving Me On My Own ~ Christ {Book3}

Johnny Christ Ch 3

"Wait!" I froze taking a few deep breaths before quickly turning back to Johnny, he was right behind me.. making me bump into him.. I stumbled but his warm arms wrapped around me, catching me before I could fall. "Are you alright?" He asked looking me over. Butterflies filled my stomach as he held me.

I nodded frantically feeling my cheeks heat. "I um I'm fine.. did you want something?" I asked breathless at his closeness. 

He looked at me.. for what seemed like forever before he shook his head. "No..." He let me go clenching his jaw. He was fighting something.. himself maybe...

"Johnny.. Is something wrong?" I asked worried.. touching his arm.

He looked a me with hesitant eyes. "Yes damn it, but it's not your fault." He sighed in frustration before turning away.

"Tell me." I said putting a hand on his shoulder comfortingly.

"You don't really want to know.. I'll see you in the morning." He was tense..

"Yes I do, please." He looked at me with uncertainty.   

"Fine. When I look at you I want to kiss you, I want to touch you... I just WANT you, everytime I see you.." He broke off running his hands through his hair.  

My heartbeat wouldn't slow down... He felt like I did.. I couldn't stop myself from kissing him. He wrapped his arms around my waist. "Johnny.." I whispered his name as he grinned at me. 

"I thought you hated me.." He said as I touched his cheek softly. 

"No, I never hated you ..only the thought of you and Angel.. the things she said.. hurt." I said remembering her smug grin as she told me everything.. that I now knew was lies..

"I never touched her." He said firmly, gently running his finger tips down my cheek. "I wanted to make you jealous." 

"Why?" I asked feeling .. happy. 

"Because you wouldn't look at me.. It was like I wasn't even there." He said frowning. 

"I noticed you, every time you came to the bar and grill.. I had to leave you to work and it frustrated me.. that you were there and I couldn't talk to you.." I said smoothing my fingers across his mouth. 

He grinned kissing me. "Your so beautiful." He said hugging me. My heart did a little flip flop as my cheek pressed against his chest.

"Stay with me." I said softly.. my words partially muffled against his chest.

He pulled back to look at me with hesitant curiosity.. and a little wonder.. "What did you say?" 

His grip on me tightened.. this was my only chance to back out.. "I want you to stay with me tonight." I said smiling at him... I didn't want to back out. 

He kissed me again this time harder.. we were both wanting this.. "I want too." He said in a breathless rush. 

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Britt's POV

I grinned excitedly as I woke up the guys.. "Get up boys! We're going for breakfast!" Johnny must have already left because he wasn't in the pile on the couch. 

"NO! Five more minutes!" Jimmy yelled tucking his head into the bend of his arm.

"Fine, five minutes and that's it." I said shaking my head. Zacky grinned blinking a few times. Gwen, Syn, Stacy, and the babies were going to meet us there so I needed to get these guys ready quickly. 

"I'll get these two up, you go get Ali." Matt said quickly wrapping his arms around my waist for a kiss.

I smiled against his mouth. "Thank you." He  squeezed me once before letting me go.