The Abuse Poems

Crying Your Tear Out As You Watch The Blood Fall

I am done with life

I don’t want to coexist with it

I feel like I am hanging eleven foot off the ground

Like I am choking on the air I breathe

On the course I wander

Feelings of hate and pain flood my body like a proceeding virus

I feel weak

I know that death wishes are just over acting

They fade away but I still feel

Feel the harsh stinging pain of my heart melting

I cry

Tears flood down the pallor of my face

It drops like candy drops, heavily splattering in wet transparent blurs

But still crying doesn’t let the pain out

It doesn’t make me feel safe

It doesn’t bring the one who gave birth to me

The one I burnt alive

The one who told me not to mess with fire

Did I listen?

No and what happened?

She burned

The blade crosses my skin

I am deep in thought

The pain leaks through the open wound

I feel my soul escaping

I know why I am cutting

It’s not the first time

And not the last.