This is dedicated to @ZiallGiggles
(NIALL'S POV)
22 years.
22 years I've lived with my schizophrenia.
22 years I've lived with the sleepless nights, brought on by the hallucinations, and nightmares.
Tonight is no different. I lay here in my bunk hiding under my blanket. Currently being petrified by another one of my evil hallucinations. Its always the same things though. Its the man waiting outside of my curtain to murder me, or the criminals chasing our tour bus just waiting for us to stop so they can kidnap me and torture me.
I know that none of its real. I know it's just my mind taunting me. Trying to trick me, scare me. But there's nothing I can do about it. Not with medication. Not anything help from myself. But that's all that I got. Don't get me wrong in love the other three boys to death. They mean the world to me and I would take a bullet for anyone of them any day, they truly are my brothers. But I can't let them find out about my schizophrenia. They would just think I am a freak. But face it, I am a freak.
I hear footsteps coming towards my bunk, I feel my breath quicken, and my muscles tighten as I brace my self for................................................................
Nothing.
-NEXT MORNING-
(LIAM'S POV)
its currently 5:30 am and I'm woken up by my alarm clock. I make my way to the front of the bus to put my phone and charge and turn to go back to the bunks to wake up the other boys, knowing that we got to be a the radio station at 10:30 for an interview and it was gonna take a couple hours to get there.
I start with Louis first, knowing he'll be the easiest to get up. All I have to do it shake his shoulder and he's up and off to get ready.
Harry's next and I have to shake him a couple times but he eventually trudges out of his bunk into the front of the bus.
Lastly there's Niall. As I shake him awake I notice that he's being to difficult to wake up than normal. I shake him a couple more times a bit rougher and I see his eyes flutter open.
"Morning Li." He speaks, voice still obviously laced with sleep.
"Morning Ni, you sleep well?"
"Yep." I know that he's lying because the dark bags under his eyes show the lack of sleep. But I just let it slid, knowing that you can't push Niall when it comes to stuff like that.
-SKIP TO INTERVIEW-
(LIAM'S POV)
This interview was so boring. We just get asked the same questions we've heard a thousand times before. I'm brought out of my thoughts when I feel weight shift onto my side. I look over to notice that Niall is slightly leaning on me. He's also bouncing his and it's annoying the shit out of me, but I won't tell him that, I know that he means nothing by it. The bags understand his eyes are still very prominent despite Lou's attempts to cover them up with make-up. I notice that he has his hands clasped tightly together and he keeps looking around. Luckily this is just a radio interview so nobody can see him. He's sweating buckets and he acts like he's just ran a marathon, yet we've been sitting here for the last 30 minutes. I have no clue was has his so anxious.
After the interview we greet the nice women and head back out to the van. Louis and harry take the middle seats as Niall and I take the back. Larry is off in their own world talking about some new TV show, so I take the opportunity to see what's up with Niall.
