(Niall's POV)
Sleep.
That's all I wanted, I mean is that really to much to ask for. It's currently 3am and this is the 3rd night that I've went without sleep, I can't do this for much longer. It's not that I don't what to go to sleep, because trust me I wouldn't love anything more than to bundle up with my covers and sleep for 5 months, but I just can't. The doctors always told me that I would just grow out of my anxiety, but I just could never get over it, it controls everything, what I do, how I act. I feel like I have no control (see what I did there) over myself anymore. I've tried so hard to keep it under control around the guys but sometimes I just can't. This headache from my insomnia is making me feel like my brain is going to bust out of my head at any second. I see Harry sleeping from across the room, wanting nothing more than to be wrapped up in my best friends arms right now. I really hope he isn't mad at me for snapping at him earlier, normally I would never snap at Haz, but I was just so tired and mad. He probably hates me now.
I hear harry call my name from across the room, I immediately freeze, praying that he buys the 'I'm asleep' act.
"Nialler." I hear him say again. He sounds so sad, man I've really done it now. Maybe I should just answer him back, apologize. I could just tell him what's going on , maybe he can help, he'll understand. No, he'll just think I'm a baby, or I'm just overacting. I nearly scream as I feel a warm hand tap my shoulder.
"Niall, it's okay it's just me Harry, hey man you okay?" NO I'M NOT FRICKING OKAY. YOU JUST ABOUT GAVE ME A HEART ATTACK FOR GOODNESS SAKES!!!!
"Ye...yeah I'm fine." Why can't I just let him in he's my best friend?
"Are you sure? Your pale as Louis' ass (Idk I thought this was funny it's 2:00am give me a break) and shaking like a leaf." I look at my hands mentally slapping myself for not being able to control myself any better than this.
"I'll be fine." Only I'm not.
"Why don't I lay down with you, just to make sure?" I honestly couldn't ask for a better best friend, he can read me like a book.
"Okay." Was the best thing I could come up with, I was just happy he wasn't mad at me, I could never live with myself knowing Harry was mad at me.
I moved over so that Harry could lay next to me, I already felt better with him next to me.
"You're still shaking, are you cold?" I just nodded yes not being able to come with a better lie to explain my shaking. I felt Harry snake his arms around me, just being wrapped up in his arms is better than any pill that the doctors could ever give me. I feel myself began to calm and in the first time in what feels like forever, I feel safe. As I'm drifting into the unfamiliar world known as sleep I hear Harry whisper something in his deep soothing voice.
"Better?"
"Better."
"Night Nialler."
"Night Haz."
And with that we both feel asleep.
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Loves this is only the beginning, this story is about to take a huge twist. Prepare yourselfs.
All the love as always,
XOXO JC❤.
