Heavens Fallen Angel [Andy Biersack x Reader]

I Can't Loose You And You Won't Loose Me

Chapter 17

"(Y/N) NO NO (Y/N)!" I screamed. I picked up her limp body and carried her to the bathroom running the tub and changing it so the shower turns on. I screamed her name over and over again yelling over and over NO I CANT LOOSE YOU. DONT DIE ON ME. NO HOW CAN YOU DO THIS. DONT LEAVE ME. STAY WITH ME. I felt my tears run freely fown my face. I slid my fingures down her throat making the pills be coughed up but seeing as the bottle of pills was empty I knew she took way more. I kept gagging her getting all the pills out of her. Or what I hoped where but she hadn't woken up yet. I did it one more time shoving my fingures down and doing the heimlich maneuver holding her in the tub. I didn't care if i was sokeing wet. I wanted her back and I screamed as I tried again seeing a mouth full of pills sprawl out of her mouth and I heared her gasp and I hugged her tight crying but she tried wiggling away crying and screaming. I still held her tight.

"NO NO WHY DID YOU SAVE ME. NO LET ME GO. WHY DIDN'T YOU LET ME DIE I JUST WANT TO DIE. JUST LET ME DIE. I just want to die." she cried and I shushed her.

"No don't say that." I wimpered my tears rolling onto her. I held her there tightly. I let her tears flow down and on to my wet chest. I lifted her head and slipped my shirt off. Water drenched it and it clung to my body uncomfortably so I took it off. Still crying (Y/N) flinched as she leaned against my bare chest. I reched and turned off the water crying along with her. I heard her mufle a I wish I was dead letting a small river of tears to flow down. "I-I can't loose you." I managed to shake out. She then looked up at me a confused and sad look on her face. I felt my tears hit her face and saw it to. Mine and her tears combined to make one and I then new what I felt this whole time. I fear I am in love.

*(Y/N) POV*

I looked into his saddened eyes. A tear flowed from his cheek onto mine and at the corner of my eye I saw them combine into one. I looked into his eyes and they had softened even more. He then picked me up and out of the tub handing me a towle. We both stayed silent. I dropped the towl and gowing to pick it up our hands metand we both looked up. I felt like I was in a fairy tale as we slowly stood up he handed ne the towel and placed a hand on my face "Andy," I hummed. "I can't loose you and you won't loose me." I widened my eyes at what I just said and Andy pulled me into a hug.

"(Y/N) I-" he was going to say something but didn't. I looked down and walked into the closet getting something confy after all it was Saturday. I looked and picked up my soft Batman tank and my supper fuzzy Batman pants. I walked out and looked at the room seeing it destroyed. I looked down to find Andy cleaning,

"Andy." I whined and he jerked his up at me and his eyes widened.

"BATMAN!" He yelled standing up and picking me up and spinning me around. I wanted to forget what I had done and I think Andy did to. I laughed but he stopped and looked into my eyes. I leaned forward but then stopped. What the hell. Love doesn't exist. He looked down and set me down. He cleared his throat and went back to cleaning but stopped finding the blade I used to cut myself. He picked ot up "(Y/N), why. Please don't do this. I don't want to loose you." He said then turned to me engulfing me into a hug. All I could do was hug him back. I heard his heart beat against his chest. It matched mine. Uneasy and shaken. I looked at the clock and began to cry. I don't care how soon or how long they are out. I wanted to stay here with Andy. I hate this feeling now. It eats away at me. I never thought that whatever it was would get so strong. He was my hero. I smiled and broke the sweet hug.

I tried to find something to change the subject and found my laptop on the messed up floor. I picked it up and opened it forgeting that I had not remembered to shut my search on Andy. I slammed it shut feeling my head turn red and hot. Andy looked at me confused and I shook my head. I hugged the laptop against me. Why was that still up. I should have taken it down. If Andy sees it he would be SO creeped out. Omfg. I am so stupid. He gave me a weird look and I set the computer down. I went to the bathroom and saw the tub still filled.

I touched the water and froze when I heard a voice. "Don't do it." Andy's deep voice soothed and I looked at him leaned against the door frame. I looked back at the water and felt arms wrap around me from behind.

I didn't realize it then but I was smiling. My heart pounded as I felt his breath against my neck. He wasn't mine but I wanted him to be. But love doesn't exist. It cant. If there was why would I feel so alone.

I felt his hands slip over my arms rubbing against the cuts I had made. I looked up at him his face in a emotionless state yet his eyes full of sadness. He kept his gaze at my arms and I on him. I looked at the cuts that were red around then back at him. His eyes fixated on mine. His beautiful hypnotic eyes. I got lost in them once again.