I'm Always Here

Chapter 2 ~mixed feelings~

"Hiro?" I hear my brothers voice from behind me. It echoes through out my ears as my heart pounds and my tears instantly stop. I stay staring down at the pillow with a straight face. Hoping and praying he didn't hear what i was shouting. "Do you really feel that way ?" I then heat him say suddenly right after breaking the silence.

Fuck....

He heard...he heard everything and now im stuck here not knowing what to do, not knowing how to feel. I didnt move i remained lifeless. Like a statue. I then felt the foot of the bed go down and then something travel up the bed to beside me. I still didnt move. I feel a pair of strong arms wrap around me and pull me into them. On arm rested tightly on my waist and the other under my head. I stared at the hand instantly seeing it was Tadashi's.

I felt tadashis body get closer and tightly pressed against mine. My face went a deep red. I trued so hard to hide my now flushed face. Unable to before tadashis hand pulled my waist causing my body to roll and make me face him. I kept looking at his black shirt straight ahead of me. There was a small wrinkle that would appear every time he would breath in then disappear after he released it.

"Hiro look at me please" i heard tadashi say soothingly.

I stayed in my position not wanting him to see my red eyes from crying and my blushed face from him holding me. Then i felt a finger and a thumb touch onto my chin lifting it up tilting in his direction. My eyes made contact with beautiful brown orbs. He didnt say much but i could tell everything that he was trying to say through his eyes. All i did was stare now not caring about my blood shot eyes and red face. I just started to slightly tear again trying so hars to hold them back in my tear ducts as tadashi then pulls me into his warm embrace.

I felt the heat from his body combine with mine causing me to instantly become warm. His arms were tightly wrapped around my small form causing me to feel safe. I didnt know what else to do besides bury my face into his chest. The shirt fabric spread along my face features. Every Time i would breath in my nose i could get a a small whiff of his smell. It was sweet but still masculine.

His hand rubbed my back and every now and then his grip on me would tighten as if he was checking to make sure i was still there. I felt the tears quickly fade and a smile grow upon my face. I have never imagined being held like this by him. I grabbed my small tight fists into his shirt clinging to him for dear life.

There was a silence between us both. The small quiet that many people would think would be awkward turned out to be pleasant and soothing. His small breaths i could hear and the the sound of his heart beat against my ear. It was all to pleasant as almost like a fairytale. I found myself starting to drift off in sleep. My eye lids closing gently as thoughts and dreams filled my mind.

~Tadashi's pov.~

Hiro was quiet and fit perfectly in my arms as i held his warming body against mine. I looked down at him seeing his small button nose and messy black hair in every direction. He had fallen asleep in my arms like he has down multiple times before when he was younger. I remember his small little cries for my name when he had small nightmares those nights. His tiny form crawling in bed with me and i hugged him telling him i would protect him from any harm to come. But this time it was different.

This didn't feel like the cuddling of me being a protective older brother but more of me being his significant other. I don't quite know how to feel about it. I love hiro i truly do and i always will but i never thought of him in a lover way. Wouldn't it be wrong to even do so? Incest is wrong.

Family is family it cant be more especially when your brothers. But yet, seeing him in my arms brought me comfort and relaxation like we were the only two in the world. Could i learn to love him as much as i do honey lemon? Or even act that way towards him? Its hard to tell. Not only about the whole brother thing. But i never thought of myself liking guys.

Thoughts were rushing through my head like a frat train and none of the answers were connecting to the questions. I need more time to think about these new feelings. Until i figure it out im going to continue with acting like hiro's brother and nothing more. Well try to at least... Oh dear what about honey lemon...

I felt my eyes get heavy. Them closing gently as i got lost in my thoughts about my brother. His small body protected in my arms caused a small smile to appear on my face as my body relax and i fall into a deep slumber.