The angels daughter

torn and frayed

nevah's p.o.v.
i haven't been feeling well again I'm getting that same feeling i got when we couldn't find my dad and i had to leave because i knew i would bring harm to Sam and dean. i feel i should leave again but i cant do it its to hard to even think about. i think that Sam knows there is something going on with me, but he hasn't said anything about it yet. i just don't know what to do with all the stuff i know about myself now i don't know if i can even trust myself anymore.

Sam's p.o.v.
i know neviah is down but i don't want to bring it up because i don't want to make anything worst then they already are. i don't want to let it go and her be upset even more because i didn't ask what was wrong. oh the struggle of being a normal guy. "dean i know nevah has been down lately i think we can all tell, but i don't know if i should ask her if she wants to talk or just let it go and see what happens" i asked. "i think you should talk to her we don't want her to disappear like she did that time before we found cas" he said making a very good point. so i went into our room where she sat on her laptop doing who knows what. "can we talk" i asked. "sure about what babe" she said looking up from her computer for just a second then going back to what she was doing. "about how you have been feeling i can tell there is something bothering you and i just want to help in any way i possibly can because i love you and i hate anytime you are feeling anything but happy" i said.

nevah's p.o.v.
i knew he would ask at some point so i guess ill just put it all out there. "well i made my mom disappear like i don't even know what i did she could be dead or whatever else. i know she's evil and all but she is still my mother so a part of me feels terrible. Even after the stuff i found out about myself. i feel used like i was just born to be the queen of hell and make the perfect demon babies for my mother, and now i see myself as a danger to everyone. I feel like everyone is better off with out me in their lives" i said catching a big breath at the end because i was talking super fast. "for one i would not be better off with out you i need you in my life. for two you are not a danger to use if you where more evil then good then god wouldn't have brought you back and made you a powerful angel. i know you are going to be on the sad side about your mother and all that i don't blame you. you are still getting used to the fact that your mother is what she is and she kept it from you for so long. lastly you where not just born to be whatever your mother planed for you to be you where born to be..." he stopped for a moment.

Sam's p.o.v.
"you where born to be my wife" i said as i got down on one knee. "i got this a couple of weeks ago i was going to wait longer but i honestly cant take it. so nevah Ann carter will you do me the honer of being my wife and changing that crappy ass last name of yours" i smiled. she smiled with tears streaming down her face and said "yes" and jumped up and kissed me. in that moment everything was perfect and i couldn't be happier. we went down stairs to where bobby and dean where sitting and nevah called down cas so we could tell them. I'm a little scared because i didn't ask cas it was out of no where and i couldn't help myself i did have it all planed out how i was going to ask him and all of that, but that went out the window. cas appeared and i took a deep breath "so guys I'm going to be Mrs.winchester soon" nevah said showing them the nice rock i got her, and i kinda got the death stare from cas. dean jumped up and hugged me and congratulated us. "now you will finally be my sister" he said play punching nevah on the chin. bobby smiled and welcomed her to the family "not like i don't already see you as family already you idjite" he said. then cas he just stood there so i spoke up "I'm sorry cas i was going to ask you and everything" but then he cut me off. "its OK Sam i realize that my daughter will never be as happy with anyone as she is with you so you have my blessing son" he said making me breath out in relief.