When love strikes

Feelings are real - three

It's the next day and I'm up early thinking about him. Why do I like him so much? I don't even know his name and I'm in love. He won't love me anyway I'm worthless. I'm gonna find out his name though. What are feelings and why do I have them? They aren't funny at all I wish they would die but the were never alive.

I decide to leave why my mom is still sleeping and walk to school so I'm early and I can see him. I'm gonna ask him his name. No I'm not I'm so stupid.

I end up walking anyways. When I get to school we sit in the cafeteria in the morning with our friends which I have none of. I look for Sarah immediately and when I see her she is sitting alone right beside the table he's sitting at. I walk across the room and when I get there Sarah smiles. "Hey, how are you today?" She says. "Good, how are you?" I say back in a funny voice and we both laugh. It feels good to laugh again and have friends. But I want him. Fuck." I say out loud. "Pardon me" says Sarah. "Oh uh nothing I was just thinking sorry." I say startled. She looks at me weird. I stare over her shoulder the entire time and just stare at this perfect boy. "Ohhhhhhhh I see now" she says. "What?" I say. "Why your staring silly." I just kept staring not even caring what she said. "His name is Cole" she says. "His name makes me shutter inside. Even his name is perfect. "No one on this earth can figure out Cole. He has no friends but is really hot. He doesn't talk much though.." She says. "I wanna be his friend" I say. "Good luck." Says Sarah.

I keep thinking about talking to him but I didn't have enough nerve to. It's only 2nd block, 2 more to go and then I'm out of here. Coles in my 2nd block which is ELA. Its pretty chill we just do are work then talk. It's like the end of class 10 mins left and everyone's already taking but I'm just sitting hear alone and so is Cole sitting alone two seats away. I get up because there's an empty seat in front of him so I walk over and sit down in the seat. He was asleep. Great. Well I was gonna change my seat to here anyway so I just look at him. I shiver and then the bell rings and he doesn't move. I go to touch his back and the I just touch it and run out of the room. He walks out behind me looking confused. I was so scared that I run all the way to 3rd block and fall into my chair. The girl behind me taps on my shoulder and I turn around. "You know it's only the second day of school nothing to run from yet" she says laughing. "True" I say and laugh. "Hey. The name is Isabel" she says with a little bit of confidence. I'm Ashton. Nice to meet you Isabel" I smile. We shake hands and I turn around laughing.

I'm home now and I'm confused. Maybe school isn't that bad after all. I've made friends. Sarah and Isabel but I'm not sure about Cole I mean I can't like him because he don't like me... I stay to fall asleep it's like 10 and then I just say. "Stuff changes" and then I close my eyes.