***5 months later***
Harley's P.O.V-
It's gotten so hard to live right now, work has got incredibly hard. I'm one out of two therapists there and my work load is creeping up on me. I thought I was terrified at the start but now it's way beyond terrifying, although, at least now I know I'm good at my career choice, J; one of the most demonic criminals in the asylum, has got very much better and I've been the only one to treat him. Thawn is expecting him to be fully recovered by next week and out in a month or so.
The recognition I have received from others in the city because of this has been amazing, I feel on top of the world right now because of him but still there's the others who aren't getting better at all; the riddler and poison ivy to be exact- they seem to be getting depressed. I can't tell what's wrong but I hope I find out soon, it's strange to see them like this.
Another this that has been playing in my mind are the reoccurring nightmares, they're still here ever since that night around 7 months ago I think. That dreadful night of little sleep and lots of tears and sweat. I tremble just thinking about them, maybe I should see a therapist myself. I don't know. It's a very stupid thought, I don't need a therapist, I'm fine. I have to just look forward. It's my birthday soon and I have to be happy, it's my 21st, a very special occasion. It's also two weeks before my trial ends and I see whether I have worked my way to an actual job.
It's worrying me a lot but I need to cut my self some slack and have fun. It's exciting, I have everything going for me and I should be happier but still something deep down is wrong and I need to find out what. Maybe I need a holiday from work, hm, maybe I need to just leave before I get mentally scarred myself? No, I can't leave now after doing so well, I just can't. I've done everybody so proud, I will make them feel more pride in me, I need to have the same faith I have in everybody else in myself.
It's beginning to get dark outside so I decide to go to sleep ready for tomorrow, I have one of my last sessions with J and then I have some short appointments with poison ivy and the riddler. I need to be in my zone and not freak out, I cannot break down or panic. I don't even know why I'm like this, it's horrible, I shouldn't be freaked out over seeing my patients hurt but yet it still gets to me far too much. I should stop caring as much but they're people too and they need love just as much as anybody else. I'm so emotional right now, I really need to stop all this, I should not be this attached to them.
I close my eyes and fade into the darkness hoping tomorrow sheds light on my emotional mind.
