❤️ Breaking Apart

Why!?!?

Date: June 4th 2015

2:20pm

Lorraine's P.O.V

I walked into the living room, all nervous.

I had my arms behind my back.

Delia raised her eyebrow knowing something was up.

I said "Yeah?"
Kristine stated "Where did you go!?"
I stated "I told you I would be back soon a I was!!"
She hissed back "That was actually long!"
I snarled "It wasn't!! It was like a hour!! I was just with some friends!"
Kristine snapped back "Who!?!"
I rolled my eyes and said "Just Ana and Katie!!"

Delia I could see was getting uncomfortable.
She got up and walked out of the room.
Well started...

Delia screamed "Kristine look at your sisters arms!!"

I gulped in complete fear. I started shaking a little.

Kristine rolled her eyes as she was walking past me to look at my arms.

Kristine had a grip on my left hand where the X cut was! Then she spun me around.
My hand burned like hell, as her grip got tigther.

She started screaming at me.
She screamed "What are you doing with your life also with yourself!!! You're not in college! Your disapointed everybody!! Your just hurting Luke, all your friends and the rest of this family even more!! So stop and wake the fuck up!!"

I pulled my hand away from her and started
thinking.
My hand was burning like fucking hell!!

I was just going to stil there and take everything she was saying.
But what she said felt like a knife to the heart!

I screamed back "I'm done with having this mask on, that I'm happy!! I thought you fucking hated Luke and the boys! You always said they all were bad influences or assholes! And especially you didn't want me to date Luke at all! You and Christine are the lucky ones! You both don't have to deal with depression, panick attacks and when some of the people you wanna be with are all around the damn fucking world, miles away from you! So this all leads why I can't have my head in a stupid fucking book!! I don't need to be like my friends in college and knowing all their dreams and jobs!! I'm me and I'm very very proud of that!! And if your not proud of me then you don't need to be my sister! Wait no you don't need to fucking even know me or act like I even exist!!!!!"

Delia's jaw dropped.
I saw Kristine looking upset and her lip quivering.

Kristine started to say "L-Lorraine I don't hate Luke or the boys! I-I'm sorry you feel like this but you really need to f-focus on c-c-"

I cut her off by walking away and rolling my eyes.
I just knew she was lying about Luke and the boys!

I ran upstairs.

While I was walking upstairs I heard Delia say "Kristine are you okay?"
Kristine cried out "No... What have I done..."

I heard that come out of her mouth way way to many times!

I got to the top of the stairs finally I felt tears coming back..

What did I just say...

Christine and Amy's music was still blasting!
My huge headache was getting worse and worse!

I went into my bedroom and tried my best just to lay down and relax!

Kristine's P.O.V

I stood there with Delia next to me trying to comfort me.