I was stunned. I stopped staring at the window, and my thoughts got the best of me. I thought that he didn't like me anymore.
Then why did he kiss me?
Maybe he likes me.
Then why did he leave?
I couldn't think very straight since I was so tired. I curled up in my comforter and fell asleep. When I woke up, I looked around. I don't know what woke me up or even how, but it was 11:26. I looked over, to see my mom had left me dinner. I hadn't eaten since lunch, but I wasn't hungry. Then I heard it. It was light and soft, but I could tell it was a guy's voice.
"Pst....Dez.." I looked over expecting to see Chris at my window, but it was Gordie. I turned my lamp on. He smiled.
"Hey, can I come in?" He asked. I rubbed my eyes.
"Yeah. Sure," I scooted over so he could sit. Gordie was almost the opposite of Chris. He had brown hair and was skinny with barely any muscle. Chris had muscles and had blonde hair. I didn't know witch one was taller though.
"So what happened with you and Chris?" Gordie asked. I turned my palms over to face the ceiling and stared at them.
"I don't know. He just kinda left..." I spoke more to myself than to him. Gordie looked confused. He seemed as if he was going to ask another question, but he then looked up at my face.
"Are you okay?" He finally asked. I looked at him with a puzzled expression.
"...yeah," I said. I barely knew the kid, why would I be affected?
All of a sudden Gordie wrapped his arms around me.
"Don't worry," he said. I was still confused. He looked at me.
"Sorry," he said as he quickly leaned away and.
"I know your worried about Chris...I'm sorry but I - I just can't say anything.." He quickly got up and walked towards the window.
"What? I'm so confused about all of this..." He looked up.
"You'll know soon...just promise me you won't worry?" But I was worried. Right in that moment I was scared.
"Promise," I said and smiled. At least I think it was a smile. And with that, he was gone.
* * * *
I awoke the next morning at 6:47 and I couldn't go back to sleep, so I decided to get ready and go to the tree house, hoping Chris would be there. I pulled on a pair of acid washed jeans and a blue and red stripped shirt. I put on my converse and took an apple. Today my door was unlocked. I wrote a note saying I would be back at lunch and that I was hanging out with friends. I wrote down the time and I ran out the door. It didn't seem like it took very long to get there, since I was so anxious. I climbed up the laser and knocked. No answers. I went ahead and pushed open the door. Only after I was all the way through, I saw the shirtless Chambers spread out across blankets. I closed the door and saw him stir. He opened his eyes and as soon as he saw me, he sat up.
"Sorry," he said. I knew why he was saying sorry, but I tried to act like I didn't.
"You probably hate me. I just want to apologize and say that it's ok if your mad or at me, or confused, because I am too right now," he continued talking and I crawled up next to him, and I don't think he was fully aware of this until I leaned over and kissed him. He looked stunned.
"I'm not mad and I don't hate you. I'm not really sure how to explain..." I said. He looked at me. Oh his eyes. His beautiful eyes. He leaned over and kissed me. He leaned his head back on the wood wall, and sighed.
"I wanted to tell you that I like you. But I didn't mean to..." He swallowed.
"I didn't mean to kiss you or anything.." He had his eyes closed as he spoke. He finally opened them and looked back at me, looking a little worried.
"I saw the pictures of me on your wall." Silence. I could feel my face turning red.
"I really liked them," he said, sounding a little uneasy. Silence. I scooted down the wall until I was fully lying down.
"I'm going to try to sleep," I said. I turned onto my left side and looked over. He had crawled under the covers. He closed his eyes and breathed in deeply.
"Ok. I'm pretty tired, so I'll probably fall asleep too." I got under the covers and put my head on the pillow. This was the worst and bestest moment of my life. Like, ever.
I woke up not knowing where I was until I remembered. I smiled and tried to got back to sleep. I heard someone knock.
"C'mon Chris, let me in. I know your in there," I herd a whiny voice say. I sat up and shoved Chris. He moaned and opened his eyes. Vern knocked again.
"If you don't move the table and open the door for me, I'll open it myself," he said, sounding annoyed. Chris got up and quickly removed the covers. He looked at me and saw that I was staring at his eyes. He leaned over and kissed me. He looked me in the eyes for what seemed like forever, then got up and moved the table.
"Sorry Vern." It looked like he was going to make up an excuse, but he didn't have any. Vern climbed up and smiled when he saw me.
"Oh hi Dez! Pleasure seeing you here," he said as he climbed the rest of the way through. I smiled. Vern could always cheer you up. Even though I wasn't in a bad mood, he made me feel infinitely happy inside.
"So, hey. Me and Teddy were thinkin' we should go to the lake. I mean, it's the one of the last days of freedom, and it's kinda 80 degrees outside." He looked at us for our responses.
"Sure," Chris said. They both looked at me.
"Sounds cool." They both smiled.
"Okay, I'll go tell Gordie and Teddy," Vern said and started to walk back out. I followed behind him.
"I should probably go change - " I was cut off as Chris grabbed my wrist and spun me into him. He hugged me and smiled. We kissed. And in that moment, it was only us in the world. No, there was no world. We were in space. Time was frozen. We were flying. Then it stopped. We were back in the treehouse.
"Are you guys coming?" Vern called from below. I was still in his arms. I looked up into his eyes.
I think he saw the universe too.
