Training Travel

Chapter I

How long does it take to forget one maybe I shall forgive my father even though he took what I valued the most...

I had a tendency of pushing people that I loved away from me because I feared heart break. I once had a friend Christian but he just had so much hidden agenda so I just pushed him away. I never really thought about Shaun as a person with something beside what I see because Shaun was just simple. He loved being happy,yes he went partying but one thing I loved about him is that he never dragged me to it. He was just special like that. He had girl tendencies ofcourse like all other gays but he never judged me ofcourse. He always sympathised with me in pain. I really adored my "bitch friend" sorry about the language

In work I was very comfortable in Shaun's presence than anyone. Not because he knew my secret but because I couldn't find any friend now because I wasn't getting any younger.... Speaking from the heart I really wanted to date one guy in my life maybe my conclusions about men will soon erase. I really wanted to experience what other people felt with their romantic partners but the question was with who?... Work yes... I was now popular reason I dont dwell much in it is because this is not really its chapter. You will get one about it in the next chapters. Yes so far I want to introduce you to the life I lived beside work.

Well a quick recap I wasn't a good lady I sometimes acted being a boy... one word...Tom Boy... I never had seen interest in men earlier and I didn't see anything wrong about that. I was just being me. When I finally turned 21 since I left home at the age of 16 I was turning to a somebody. As said I struggled to reach where I am today but I knew by then I had to do something I cant live with bread everyday... At 21 yes I was now able to buy my own house due to money saved in my bank account... Remember I said I was a model and indeed I worked at a barber shop. I bought a house in Los Vegas in Paris where I had dreams for... I bought the house but still I couldn't afford a home as they say money doesn't buy everything. I hustled very hard for my success I went from buying a house to saving for a car... I really didn't tell Shaun about it because I didn't want to give him high hopes. I still hustled very hard my landlord-agent really encouraged me in the modelling industry I remember when I had to live to England for a Fashion week and I was among the selected I really had problems with hieghts and that made me fear airplanes. At first my manager found it as a joke but he eventually saw it as a serious threat in my life as a result he had to take me to a doctor to average my fears. England was just fine but I was really thin because I was not allowed to eat too much fat,proteins or carbohydrates. I literary hated anything that had to do with the above food groups but I forced my self to eat them. There was a time when I thought of giving up because my manager really motivated me..

Well my manager in general his name is Jack. I am not allowed to call his name because he is my fathers age I guess and yes I respect people too much... I called him Sir Jay... I guess he loved it because he smiled whenever I called him...