Unknown

Imagine

His mind was set and couldn't be swayed
Our relationship was a beautiful disaster
How to handle him in all his chaotic beauty
I guess was something I could never master

It had been the most wonderfully scary
unpredictable time that I have ever loved
I miss the excitement surrounding him
But it's left down below now, never above

Inside I can't fight to keep the pain anymore
Life is too hard to be turning on each other
I loved him with all my heart and soul
But he had given his heart to another

Someone who couldn't accept it
because she is with us no longer
She was a prior version of me
She grew weak as my addiction grew stronger

Finally her spirit died along with her ideals
leaving behind the crappy parts you see
The bad decisions and hurtful words spoken
That's all he saw when he looked at me