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How can you still love someone who hands you so much pain?

That's the only question I have, but I still love you

even if everything around me is driving me insane

We accept the love we think we deserve, but do I deserve you?

No, everywhere I go just brings unwanted rain

I'm just a shit of a person, that's what I've always been told

and I'm waiting for my breath to drain

I'm still holding on in fear I'll meet you there

even though you're the adrenaline that keeps running through my veins

Is it possible to feel so crazy, but know I'm somehow the slightest bit sane?

Please, you don't understand why you need to keep living

But when you threaten me it's as if I'm tied up with chains

With every word I write comes another second I'm still here

and I have others asking why but I don't want to explain

It's something that must be done, what's been long awaited for

something I can no longer constrain

and my words don't even make sense as I'm dying in vain

slowly killing myself in any sense there can be

as only a memory of you pounds against my brain

I'm talking nonsense, just like usual, how terribly inhumane

Maybe I should take a step back, realign my goals and find out what I should obtain

But I can't, despite the two lives that still hang in the balance of verses and refrain

The sad melody of an ending tune approaching faster than a train

My mental footsteps continue marching, with spirits they'll sustain

Ignoring the rocky and dangerous path of my mind's impossible terrain

A wayfaring stranger more familiar than my sorry excuse of a reign

So willing to drag you down with me in a winning death campaign