Topic: When you're depressed .
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I'm not good with depression type story's, so bare with me please // Ash :))
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Shawn (Age 13)
Fat
Stupid
Worthless
Ugly
Disgusting!
All these words just flooded into your head, not leaving and staying there. You were convinced that all these words described you perfectly. But you didn't realize what all that could've made you do. Until one day, when those words hit you like a truck.
You were sitting on the couch, on your phone. You were scrolling through your Instagram feed, and you followed this one girl who was very pretty. Pretty enough to be a model.
She went to your school, and she was in one of your classes. P.E to be more specific. You didn't like that at all. You wanted her to be in none of your classes, because in the locker room while you'd change, you'd always get insecure when you'd see how perfectly that girl's body is.
Anyways, the girl had posted a new picture and you looked at it for a good 5 minutes. The girl was at the beach in a bikini, and she looked perfect! Then those words came back to you. You honestly just wanted it to stop, it all to just stop. Well, I guess that's what everyone wants.
You decided to stop looking through your feed, and just watched some TV. Then there was some commercial about how people need to start getting healthier and skinnier. You felt kind of offended because you thought that was directed to you. But really you're not fat!
You turned off the TV, and instead read a magazine. Until you came across the latest bikinis that were modeled by very beautiful girls! You broke! You couldn't take it anymore!
'All everyone wants to see is pretty body's and Beautiful faces!' You thought. You cried you heart out, and thought maybe you're not good enough for the world. So why live it?
No one was home but you. Of course, you were home alone because no one cares enough to stay with you. At least that's what you thought. You went upstairs to your room, into your bathroom. You locked the door behind you, and went over to your sink. You looked in the mirror. All you saw was misery, ugliness.
You wanted it to go away. You shed some tears and went back out and to your parents room. You thought the best way to end it was to do an overdose. You got some pills that your mom was taking. You pryed opened the cap, and took some out placing it on the palm of your hand. You took a deep breathe and thought 'Am I really doing this?'
Meanwhile Shawn was out with his friends. But it started to rain so he decided to head home. When he entered the house, there seemed to be no one around. Until he remembered his little sister who he loved dearly.
He called her name, but there was no response. He started to get worried, so he went up to her room to see if she was probably just taking a nap. But when he approached the room, there was no sign of his little sister.
He searched everywhere but there was no sign of her. Until he remembered he hadn't searched his parent's room. He went in and no one was there. But the bathroom door was closed. Could it be her?
You were still thinking if you should, and with all your might you gulped down all those pills. You looked around and you were getting dizzy. Then you saw Shawn appear with tears in his eyes. You collapsed on the floor very weak. He held you in his arms and cried.
"Why'd you do it?" He asked crying. You weakly answered, "Because I don't belong." "Yes you do! I'm taking you to the hospital." He said, and carried you to his car. "No let me die please!" You begged.
After the hospital situation, you regretted even taking the pills. Shawn helped you back up, and little by little you became more happier as the days went by.
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Was it good? I got Inspired to do a depressing one after I saw this account on Instagram that had sad depressing audio! You should check it out! The account name is deepaudios - Ash :)
10215 @ 2:01 pm
