Mute

Forgetting

I decided that I needed a break from all of the werewolf drama. I would invite the whole pack, unfortunatly, because I couldn't have Elena and Cassidy suspecting anything.

I though maybe a movie or bowling, but I wanted something that would last the whole day.

That was how we ended up deciding to go to the Bullhorn Water Park. The park was huge. It had about twenty water slides all different shades of blue, huge and small all twisting different ways. There were several slides for tubing, with a group on a huge tube or a single floaty. The best part I thought was the tube races.

Five lanes of shallow slides were all side by side, warm water rushing down the high slopes. Everyone gets in a colored tube and sits at the starting point, waiting for the horn to sound. When it does, you better give yourself a huge push at the beggining and hope the odds are in your favor. Since my legs are so short I have to really push. I always lose, but it's so much fun so I don't care.

The pack was all off in their rooms getting ready for the fun day. I hadn't thought about the whole bathing suit drama when I planned this and now I was worried. I had plenty of bathing suits, but none that would cover my scars. I would just have to deal with it, I guess.

I stripped off my blue ducky onsie and pulled on my pink bandeau bathing suit top and plain black bottoms. I hadn't gone swimming in forever because I was so insecure, but I couldn't let that stop me now. Plus, Kody would be by my side the whole time helping me through it.

Hopefully. Come to think of it, he hadn't been very, I don't know, matey or whatever. In fact, it seems like he has been avoiding me. Why? He is supposed to love me and want to be with me every second of the day or something. Oh well.

I pulled a cropped hoody over the suit and pulled on some flip flops. I gathered my hair into my new favorite hair style, a messy bun. I had first seen the look on one of Shayla's side kicks and decided it would keep my crazy hair at bay.

The whole thing about Kody was making me think. Wasn't I supposed to feel something too? A magnetic pull or whatever? My heart should be pounding when I am near him and and I should be able to sense him. But, I can only sense him as much as any of the other pack members. Weird. Martha and Cassidy were talking about it one day because Cassidy thought she had met her mate and wanted to know what it felt like.

"I can always smell him. Each mated wolf has a certain sent, and his is forest. It is so nice. I fell a sort of magnetic pull whenever I am around him. And my wolf always wants to be near him." She had said.

My wolf had been pretty quiet lately. And I didn't smell a nice smell when I was near Kody. Maybe we weren't mates, after all.

"Rebel, let's go!" Reese called up the stairs. I ignored my incoming panic attack, and climbed down the stairs, through the double doors, and into Nick's truck. I sat in the back seat and buckled up.

I could do this.

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sorry it was short but i have writers block and I had to upload something. the next chapter will be better, I promise. sorry, love you.

xoxo tn