Beginnings and Endings,

Order of The Phenix

A/N: I want to make this a real story but I'm not sure if it's good, it's my first boyxboy, comment please to tell me what you think...

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I sat there, swinging slowly. All around me was yellow. The grass was yellow, the ground was yellow, the sky even had a yellow tint. A kid, maybe eleven, just got off the wheely thing I never knew the name of. His mother had told him it was time to leave, and held out her hand to him. He took it and walked off with her. Inwardly I groaned, what's worse was Dudley was coming.

"Hey Big-D," I called to him.

"Beat up another 10 year old?" I mocked.

"this one deserved it!" he growled back.

"five against one, brave," was my sarcastic reply.

"well your the one to talk, moaning around in your sleep. At least I'm not afraid of my pillow! Cedric, he's going to kill Cedric! Who's Cedric? He your boyfriend?" he mocked. I was enraged at the truth. My fourth year at Hogwarts, Cedric was my boyfriend.

Yes; I, the great Harry Potter, was gay. I drew my wand and stormed to him, my wand at his throat. His gang laughed unknowingly. The sky seemed to darken. Dudley's gang of cowards ran off, leaving me with the pig.

"what are you doing?" he whimpered

"I'm not doing anything," Dementors! I thought as I replied to him. we gotta go, so we took if running. He coulsnt see them but he must sense the danger. I could feel the sadness they brought as we turned into a tunnel.

We stopped and waited. Boom! A Dementor grabbed my throat and pulled me up against the wall.

"Dudley, run!" I whispered. He was smart enough to comply. The Dementor feed from me.

*flashback*

"Harry, look at me Harry. I love you, never forget that," Cedric told me as we stopped before the cup. I nodded and whispered 'I love you too' to him. We lunged for the cup and got it at the same time. It was a portkey. a green light flashed and the man who had given me happiness, the man who had loved me, the man who shown me how to love, was dead.

*end of flash back*

I grabbed my wand and hit the Dementor, whacking both it and my wand away. I struggled to reach my wand before the Dementor came back.

"Expecto Pantronum," I hissed letting the memory Cedric's words of love fill me up and the expected light appeared. I chased off the one who had me and the one on Dudley. The world was a haze to me now. All I could feel was sadness. Ms. Figg came and helped me home, but I couldn't remember any details.

Then I hit home. I became aware as Dudley pointed his finger at me, accusing me. I had been expelled from Hogwarts! My head hurt so much. This was unfair! I couldn't take this anymore. I stormed upstairs and threw myself onto my bed, sobbing.

I had the same flashback again. It was almost always this one. I awoke to see the key in my door turning. It popped out and Tonks, Professor Moody, and the rest of the order.

They brought brooms, I was escaping. We were flying, I was free! We landed at Grimwald Drive, Serius' house, he knew my secret. I watched in wonder as a house expanded from the others, magic never ceases to amaze me. I entered as Moody told me to. Ms. Weasly came out and hugged me. Them directed me upstairs. Probably to see my friends. Ron, I knew was here. He was bi and in love Hermione but had lesser feelings towards me. Talk about conflicting emotions. Hermione didn't know.

I walked up and heard Keretcher, the house elf talking. I entered the door and was captered in a hug. Typical Hermione.

"Harry, we have heard so much. You much tell us everything. The hearing at the ministry is just unheard of. I looked it up, they cant expel you, it's simply unfair." she chattered.

"There's a lot of that going around." I muttered back.

"this, this is headquarters. The order of the phenix's headquarters." answered Ron at my unspoken question. I knew about the Order.

When Hermione told me Dumbledore had said for them not to tell me anything I snapped. I scorned her with my words, her and Dumbledore.

Fred and Gorge apperated behind me scaring the crap out of me. The told me all I needed to know threw the Extendable Ears, but Crookshanks attacked the ear before we could hear too much. Damn it!

The door started to open so we all crept upstairs as fast as possible. Ms. Weasly came out.

"It's time for dinner," she called out. We pretended to have been in our rooms the whole time. Surprisingly Fred and George weren't behind us. Then we heard a shout.

"FOR HEAVENS SAKE YOU TO, JUST BECAUSE YOU ARE OF AGE DOSN'T MEAN YOU HAVE TO WHIP YOUR WANDS OUT FOR EVERY LITTLE THING!" I think that was Ms. Weasly. Haha, sucks for the twins. They were like brothers to me.

"we were just trying to save time," they half objected. I grinned but my scar started to burn. To bad, worse then ever before. The world started to get hazy and then it all faded away and I was in a dream.

*dream*

"Harry, Harry," called Cedric. He was behind me in the prefects bathroom. I had just finished learning about the egg.

"Ron told me you liked me, so I figured I should investigate. Is it true?" he asked. My face was a flamed with embarrassment. Ron is so dead to me.

"Um, yeah. I have been since the games began and I saw you face to face." I muttered. He broke out on a smile. Ducking my head down I muttered, "Shut up, git," to him.

"Aw, I'm sowwy," he mocked still smiling. I shoved him against the wall but he grabbed my shoulders and slammed me, lightly, against the wall to. Suddenly his face was inches from mine.

He kissed me. He had taken my first kiss away, just like that. His lips pressed against mine and we moved together, as if we were made for each other. I could feel the fireworks.

"Have you done that before?" he breathed. I shook my head and smirked.

"My god, I love you," he said, breathing heavily like me. My eyes widened and I gasped in awe. Did he really just say that?

"Love- Love you too," I stammered. 'Oh my gosh' o thought as he kissed me again. 'I am kissing Cedric Diggory!'

*Next Dream*

I stared into Snape's eyes with hatred. He had guessed I was gay. And he had been right. I felt dirty. I felt like grime and mud covered me from head to toe. Was it that obvious, was it. Was something wrong with me?

He had told me there were a couple more gay's in the school. Shamus and Dean were obvious. But that was it. Oh, crap. I trudged to the Griffendore common room. it was empty except for Hermione, who immediately embraced me, and Shamus and Dean.

"What's up with you, Ron has been acting weird as well as you!" she asked. I grimaced at her.

"I will tell you when the time I'd right, for now all I can say is. Love Ron will all your heart." I told her. Ron had some heart-aching news coming this summer. She drew her wand and pointed it at me.

"Harry, Ron has become slightly suicidal and you 'will tell me when the time is right.' Tell me now," she growled. I gulped and told her.

"Ron, um, it isn't my place to tell you. Let's ask him, we can go together if you'd like." I said as calmly as possible. We had gone and Ron had told her about his girlfriend Cassandra had been killed. Hermione felt bad after that.