Looking for something to bring me out of the darkness...

You? You saved me?

I could hear a beeping sound ringing in my ear as I tilted my head to the left to check the time. I knew I was alive, I had been saved by that man I saw when I was sinking. I didn't want to move at all, I just laid there, with eyes closed and my body shut off to the world. I thought about who that man was, but all I could recall was the muscular figure I caught sight of from the water. I thought back and wondered if I noticed him as I was walking to the lake, but couldn't think properly over the strenuous headache I had from last night.
After a while i found myself slowly drifting off back into the sleep I had awoken from 20 minutes ago.

~later~

I woke up in the hospital bed for the second day, I was getting bored by the constant beeping of the heart rate monitor, I wanted it to stop! Why did I fail again? How could I keep living? I needed to die! I was able to think straight now, my headache had dissipated by the time the nurse came in yesterday afternoon. I overheard her talking to about a visitor... She said she was going to contact someone. And there was something about a suicide clinic. I don't remember it all, I was still half asleep and not focused on her at all.

After about 4 hours of nothing. I heard a knock on the door. Obviously I didn't say anything and I wasn't going to get up to answer it. After around 5 more minutes the door was opened, and there stood a small muscular man, with a similar figure to the one I saw the other night. I thought that the chance that this man was the one who saved me was around 50%. He stepped closer to me once he had noticed that my eyes were in fact open and I was fully aware of where I was. He was staring at me, and it was starting to creep me the hell out honestly. He came closer and sat on the chair next to my face I took out his phone from the breast pocket of his jacket, which is when I realised his music was playing. It sounded like slipknot... I wanted to speak, but I had nothing to say, plus, I knew the drill, Deny deny deny.

~flashback~

"Mr Bostwick, one of these days you're going to have to admit to ask that you tried to commit suicide"
I removed my glare from the computer screen in front of me and placed it on Aaron. "Aaron, I've been in here enough times to know that you can't get anything out of me and you're going to have to let me go tomorrow"
I smirked and looked away. "Kellin, please, you know you've got people who care about you, and people who don't want you to do this to yourself again, and if you don't admit it, then I fear that you will just end up back in here, like always "I looked into his eyes, deeply. I could sense the sincerity in his voice, it was calming... But also unnerving.
I knew what was going to happen. 18 days in here without admitting it, and they would have to let me go before the 20th. But since I've been in here so long, they constantly find nothing wrong with me, all they know is I'm a teenage drunk with family issues, because everytime I tried, I would do it with pills and alcohol. And because the doctors never bothered to test my blood, they never found any traces of the pills, so there was never any proof that I tried to kill myself.
After around 3 to 5 minutes at eerie silence, Aaron finally spoke up. "You do you know people care about you right? Your mum, your sister... Me..."
I froze.
I then got out of my bed and stood by the door, my heart was racing. "I care about you Kellin, and not just in the doctor-patient way "my heart was beating so loud I could barely hear myself think. "I care about you too Aaron..." I turned quickly and was met with a soft pair of lips. At first it was small, but then it was much more, Our lips in harmony with each other, soon enough I slipped my tongue into his mouth and he greeted me warmly. Neither of us wanted the moment to end, it was perfect. But everything has an ending, and this one wasn't a happy one...
The door is pushed open and we were shocked away. I fell onto the floor and Aaron was standing by the bed. "Kellin, you're free to go. Your clothes are in this bag and your belongings are in the third locker on the left by the entrance. You have to be off the premises by 4 o'clock so you've got four hours "the manager said as he left the room. I think he's fed up of saying that to me. Aaron turn to me, "I'm sorry for kissing you. I don't want to confuse you even more" "No, it's okay I liked it, in fact... It was quite sweet, thank you "I walked up to him and kissed him on the cheek. I started to walk out of the room but he pulled my arm. "I don't want you back here Kellin... Please don't do it again "I looked into his eyes. "I'll try "he pulled me close and our lips collided for a final time. "By pauley !"
"Bye quinnie"

~end of flashback~

Okay honestly that got me nowhere in life... It only make things harder to deal with, because at that point I was cheating on Tay... I felt so bad when she found out.
It also aroused some confusion about my sexuality, I mean I knew Iwasnt gay... But I couldn't have been gay... Right?
Dammit, I lost focus of what I was thinking again. Shit! "Hi "the strange man said, which is when I noticed he had been staring at me the whole time. "I've been here for days waiting for a chance to talk to you... I I wanted to ask why you were at the pier "I looked into his eyes... I knew I couldn't say that I remembered anything from the other night, if I did I would go straight to isolation and be put on suicide watch most probably maximum risk. "What pier?" I asked sounding genuinely confused. "The pier, where you fell into the water and almost drowned. I saw you, an saved your life... You looked like you were drunk, or just very unstable on your feet..."
I didn't remember seeing anyone there when I got to the pier...
"I do remember drinking in my room... But I don't remember anything for after k left the house... Heck I don't even remember why I left the house" I forced a smile.
"Oh, well okay... Could I-uh- could I ask your name?" Oh here we go!
"Yeah sure, my names Kellin, Kellin Quinn"
"You're new aren't you?" Shit, just my luck, he's got to go to my school. "Yeah" "what school do you go to?" "well since i've only just moved here, i dont really go to a school yet, but when i do, i will be in Clairmont High" That sounded so cliche.

"no way, thats the school i go to" There was an awkward silence.

"Hey listen... i know we dont know eachother and you've only just met me, but i hope you're okay and i hope that you get better... in time for school next monday"

I gave in and realized that this guy wasn't as bad as i thought he was going to be. I turned to him and sat up on my bed. "so what kind of music are you into?" we spent the next three hours talking about our everyday lives and relationships, music, school life...everything... And for once... it actually seemed nice.

I liked talking to him, he was really nice and he was really bouncy and bubbly. He liked all genres of music but was really into metal.

"Wait i never asked your name" i said as he was just about to leave since visiting hours were over.

"Haha, its Victor, Victor Vincent Fuentes, but people call me Vic." both our faces filled with smiles as he walked out the door.