Fall Back Together

Afterwards

So life went on, after that day. Shawn went on to becoming this famous singer with thousands of fans, whereas I became the school's loser. Other than Harmony and Kennedy, everyone continued to tease me about how naive I was.

About a month after the incident, I attempted suicide. I guess the hate became too much to handle. I tried to cope with the bullying, I really did. Nothing worked, I felt so worthless. The word I heard most was "ugly". What a disgusting word. For the longest time I believed it was true, that I was ugly and worthless- the ugly duckling among the rest of humanity. I often wondered how the world would be without me. I saw myself as a burden, a weight- pulling everyone else down. Everyday I would look into the mirror, and feel ashamed at the girl looking back at me. That's not the only reason I did it, but because what hurt the most was that not once did he apologize to me... none of the boys did.

I remember locking myself in the bathroom, swallowing the pills one by one. Even though it hurt so much, I couldn't stop. The last thing I remembered was waking up in a bright room. Honestly there aren't even words to express the crush I felt when I realized I was alive.

Sometimes I wake up and feel it again and ask myself:  Why am I still here? After seeing all of the tubes attached to me, it was a wake up call to me. I couldn't live in the past anymore, if I wanted to be happy I would have to forgive and forget. That's when I realized the truth... life is worth living and I am glad to be alive.