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Part 1 ♥ Liam

I was dreading school. I really was. Its all because of Liam. Ever since he joined Croombrik High  - I dreaded school. To me he was perfect. He had these green eyes that killed me inside, His hair, Dark brown and perfect in every way. His personality. His smile. Everything. He was just perfect. I have never felt so tense and scared around someone. The worst part is I can't accept it. I haven't told anyone and I won't.

I suppose it isn't wrong to love someone in the year above. I mean theres nothing against it. He's in year 10 and I'm in year 9. Not too much of an age difference. 

We have things in common too. I mean the only way I know him is through drama club. I go each tuesday and so does he. He also goes to my swimming club every thursday. We like the same music and like the same brands and do similair things. We even share an interest in what we are planning to do with our lives. 

God he is so perfect. 

I wish I could tell him. Just let him know but I can't. He will think I'm a freak and I know I'm not the only one who likes him.

There's not that much of us in Croombrik - it's quite new actually - so if anyone joins the school it's hard not to notice them. Everyone gathers round and gives off their first thoughts (so much for 'don't judge a book by it's cover') and I already know about three people who think he is fit.

The worst part is my best friend is one of them.

Her name is Kayla. Blue eyes. Dark brown hair. Olive skin. She's really pretty actually and unlike me she isn't afraid of boys. She is so sporty and she comes to my swimming club and chats him up and I've seen the way he looks at her - he obviously likes her. He doesn't notice me though unless we are in groups in drama. I mean it's not like I am pretty or anything. There's nothing special about me. I've got matching brown eyes and brown hair. No tan. Nothing special. I am not as slim as those sport women in our school. I am more of a plays instruments, reads books, goes to drama clubs kinda person. I'm not popular and I HATE how quiet I am. She is the opposite, beautiful, sporty, smart, popular. How couldn't he fall for her?

The other two girls who like him only like him for his looks. They are twins and kinda treat it as a competition. Liam knows they like him and he finds them incredibly irritating but then again he's not the only one.

You know those kids, who think they are so popular. They shop at those designer stores and wave their expensive belongings in our faces. They think they are so cool and everyone else is nothing but their slaves. I don't know what you want to class them as but thats what they are. Yeah well to be honest noone likes them so I don't really care. I mean they think our 46 year old english teacher is fit so I really don't think I have any competition with them. It's just kayla I'm worried about. I know if I tell her the truth she'd  help but I know she'd still be hurt. Best to keep quiet I guess.

I bet you she'll talk to him again. Today in swimming. We are all in the same group -  since we signed up for our schools gala we were put in the same groups though it's obvious the teacher doesn't think I belong there. She thinks I should be with the little kids. I know this because she pairs me up with the year 7's and pairs them up together. And they are so good together it makes me hate myself. I act like I don't care and I act like I am glad she gets on so well with him. Thats the thing. I told you that I was so shy. Maybe if i spoke up about this i'd be classed as his friend by now.

Oh. And did I mention that liam's best friend is actually kayla's brother Zac? Oh and the best part is he goes home with Kayla after swimming. Just them two in a car with her mum. And I doubt they sit there in silence. I wonder what they talk about. me? goodness I am so paranoid. Still. It just bugs me that she has so many opportunities with him and I don't. I mean my brother is this freak in year 8 and hers is this handsome all-round popular guy who is BEST friends with liam.

It's so annoying how obssessed I am with Liam. I wish there was a way I could get over him but I can't, and I don't think I will anytime soon. Still, this could turn out to be a good thing. Right? Oh well, anyway I'm going swimming soon so I might as well leave it here. Gosh. I need to get over him. I don't know how though. And it's destroying me.