This matter feels all alone
Smells of rotting joy
Raping yourself to feel lust
Trying to find a way home
Penetrating words hurt myself
The only way I know to be
Screaming of the pain of envy
Scratching, trying to find my old self
Wanting to feel the normal ways
Happiness taunts me
And it's torturous
I vomit up my sins
My teeth dig into anxiety
Gouging it's ease
Letting it drip on my soul
