UNTIL ME AND MY THUG MEET AGAIN

Chapter 5

*******makenzeys pov*******

Well the past couple of days I have been really depressed. I really want jayden back and the hard thing about it is that here I got Demarcello trying to show me the love that's need but I wont except that because it's not the love I want I know my intent for bringing him out here was wrong but I needed to know if jayden still had feelings for me and if he would have saw me with demarcello and got jealous that would have clarified my theory.

The only thing that would make me feel a little better is if I talk to my sissy janiesha. I really needed her to give me some advise. She really doesn't talk to me like that any more. I know I have branched out and started to do my own thing but instill need my family by my side and hold me down. And the way im feeling janiesha isn't doing non of that witch is fucked up because she is suppose to be my sister.

Dont get me wrong she was their for some things like when i needed somewhere to live.

But through emotional shit she would always tell me to snap out of it instead of sitting down and really finding out what was wrong with me and trying to find out how to fix the problem

Janiesha was always the type of person who always held her feelings in and never showed any emotions. Witch is the total opposite of me. I show my emotions a lot you could actually look at me and see if I was deep in my thoughts or if I was happy, sad, or mad.

I decided to go downstairs and tell janiesha how I felt about how she was treating me and if she didnt want to hear it she was going to have to deal with it.

I walked down the stairs and told her that we needed to talk

Janiesha walked behind me we entered our private office that our mom had.

I sat down and began talking

I said, " why have you been acting weird towards me?"

She said, " makenzey what are you talking about?"

I said, " you never really hold a convo with me any more you always got a attitude towards me you hella rude, when ever I need you your never willing to help me, you really dont come around in NEW YORK I only saw you like 20 times and we was there 3years, you always putting bitches me and I'm your sister."

She just walked out the room she didn't even respond to what I said witch was hella out of pocket

I guess it's fuck makenzeys feeling witch is hella wrong sometimes I feel like I dont belong here like the world was meant for me.

I just broke down crying right about now I feeling like nobody loves me I'm the loneliest girl in the World.

I got up and got a knife I started slicing my arm open I really can't take this shit

I watched as blood started to pour threw my deep cut I was hoping I would cut my vein and bleed out the more I cut the harder I thought

I was thinking the one person that I love and want to be with loves someone else and he doesn't love me anymore. My only sister doesn't care about me and could actually walk out on me when I really needed her and that my best friend has strong feelings for me but I don't have feelings for him and know matter how hard I try to tell him he doesn't give a care and he still pushed and I need him as a friend because he is actually a good friend

I was starting to feel weak then I felt my eyes roll to the back of my head and then I passed tf out