"Good morning Sky, are you okay?", I could hear Alice call out hazy vague voice that seemed more distance than how close she actual was. She was sitting on the edge of the bed at my feet. Everything was still hazy and I still couldn't make words out since that incident, Alice's voice kept getting louder and than distance but her voice was in a constant battle with the other voices in my head. I looked at Alice with such dazed eyes that shut close from my little strength.
--guessing several hours later--
"Ms.Sky time to take your medicine, I'll inject it into your i.v. you might get a little cold but that's normal, let me help you get up so I won't hurt you." As she helped me sit up I could feel the dead weight of my body surpassing her will power to help me up. Finally the nurse took the needle out of the i.v. as I felt a cold chill run threw my arm and she walked out leaving me alone again. As I heard the footsteps of the nurse get farther and father away til it was only silence again I decided to make a attempt to some-what walk. I find the edge of the blanket and pull it off getting drained from the struggle I had to over come. With the corner of the blanket off of me I pull my legs to the side of the bed, soon I gain enough strength that I think I can stand on my own, so I let go. That was a mistake I shouldn't of let go, i learned as I fell straight on my side I could feel the cold floor against my skin. As I lay there I wonder if I should call for help or just lay there. After such time goes by I surprisingly get another visitor but it's not Alice like I thought it'd be knowing her she usually be here 24/7 with me if she could but no it was James. I found this bizarre to me due to the fact that last time I saw him he told me he didn't want nothing to do with me..oh well besides that fact he ran to my side and carried me up onto my bed. I could hear the panic in his voice as he asked me why and how long I've been on the floor but all I paid attention to was his black slick back hair and his brown solid eyes that had me on lock. While he continued to bitch at me I just grabbed his face and slipped his ponytail off and played with his hair knocking one of his plugs out I knew he'd get mad so I tried to hide behind my hands so the glare he was giving me would feel less cruel. I could feel his weight of his presence get off the bed I assumed he found his plug and cleaned it off as he sat on the bed by my side fixed his hair back into a ponytail. He grabbed my hands so gently and slowly he pulled them down and held them in his big warm hands as he leaned forward and placed a kiss on my forehead as he leaned away he spoke " I still love you yet I'm still mad for what you did,you know that right?", his voice so stern and cold"...I know", I tried to mutter without sounding as if I was about to cry, and still trying to see if I even had a voice. Within just a few minutes all i could feel was a warm embarrassing hug. James had me in a tight hug that was hurting everything in my body from where I was struck with a needles to where a blade had marked a scar and where still unhealed burn marks where placed. He noticed that I squealed in pain from such a tight hug." I'm sorry...I did't mean to hurt you..just I miss you Sky and I hate seeing you here..I hate coming here too see you like..this.",I looked at my hands that he still was holding, I grabbed his hands tighter and I wish I didn't start crying, I could hardly breathe as it was already but I couldn't help it."Sky don't cry",he spoke so softly to me as he stroke my hair back ,I could only cry more. Finally after a few minutes of becoming a complete mess in front of James I recollect myself and pull James closer to me and hug him despite the pain. "..I'm sorry..I'm sorry I wasn't strong enough..I can't explain my reasons or how everything came to be...but I can tell you..go to my house..and in my room..there's a box you will find two books ..they will explain more than I ever can." "How will I be able to get into your house..your brother won't let me in, for god shakes he hates me he'd probably try to kill me."Pulling James off as I place both of my hands on his shoulder I spoke "Tell him I sent you,help me up to the sink or you can go ,there is something under the skin tapped to the corner." As I kept speaking James got up up looking at me for what to do "It's umm..it's a little diamond charm my mother gave me before she left, Josh should recognize it." James frantically looking under the sink for the charm and back up at the clock that stood still on these pale lifeless walls as he also monitored the light that shined through the doorway for shadows,knowing he'd soon have to leave. Within just a matter of minutes we hear the rattle of keys at the doorway as the doorknob turns. There at the door stands the head nurse Ms.Bladeworth, she wasn't a pretty sight not one bit she had grey streaks within her black hair you could tell she tried to dye multi shades of brown yet every try was a fail held in a bun she had a crooked smile with teeth like daggers of glass blades that stood in twisted directions, as I looked at James wondering if Ms.Bladeworth acknowledged he was standing there. "Good evening Ms.Bladeworth is it already times for James to leave already it feels like he just got here.",with a snarl Ms.Bladeworth told James to get his stuff because visiting hours were over. "James,can I have a good bye hug at-least?" "Sure",as he walked up to the bed he whispered " I got it,I'll come see you tomorrow.",letting go James turned and walked away. "I..love you James,bye.." i spoke as the door behind him closed.
