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The Moon and the Stars

Here we were
In a corn field
Yes after seeing Children of the Corn I guess I could've been frightened
But I didn't care
A daredevil I was
Or was born to be
Appolonia stayed in the car and the rest of us got out to venture within the field
"Hey who has the 'feel good'?" Jordan asked.
Em pulled it out of his pocket
Already in the paper and rolled
We just needed a light
Em had the light too
He licked his lips and pressed the blunt up to his lips
He sparked the lighter with his right hand and cuffed it
The smell of "feel good" filled the small air that surrounded us
I let my eyes roll to the back of my head and tilted my head back
I felt a drizzle drop on my nose
Lucas tapped me out of my daze, "Here", he said handing me the blow
I took it from him
And pressed it against my lips
I inhaled deeply and closed my eyes
Then I waited and
Waited
Til I could taste it in the back of my throat
Feel it circling around in my throat
Then I let it out and opened my eyes
And watched the smoke escape from my mouth
Trapped inside of "feel good"
Thanks to me the smoke was free
I handed it over to Jordan and laid down in the field
On my back
Hands behind my head staring at the sky
The dark sky
Nothing was there really
Just a pink moon
And it was pretty surrounded by darkness
I closed my eyes and relaxed there
I felt a smile upon my face
I was just lying there imagining
Imagining the free world
What it was like to live in the world
To be one of the ones who lived in the world
The drizzle started to turn into more of a rain
So we decided to head back to the car
"Race ya!" Jordan called to Em.
"You're so on!" He called back.
They ran off ahead of Lucas and I
We just stood back and laughed, but we walked on
Lucas wrapped his right arm around my shoulders, pulling me in closer to him
And I wrapped my left arm around his waist
"How was your birthday?" He asked
"You guys didn't kill me, so it was pretty cool." I smirked.
"Pretty cool? Pretty cool?" He started tickling my sides
My knees started to buckle from the tickling
He bent over and swept my legs off the ground and carried me back to the car in his arms

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Knock knock knock. Knock knock knock.
"Samuella Clarke it is 1:30 wake up now!"
"Sam!"
Knock knock knock.
"I'm going to the flea market and I'm leaving without you child."
The sounds went away
All the yelling and banging on my door
Finally peace and quiet
"Mom said get up.", Max said entering my room
"Ugh go away, goodness."
"You know Sam, I really didn't want to have to do this.", he said.
He snatched the covers off of me and yanked me by my ankles on to the floor
Thump.
It was hardwood floor
I'd hit the floor really hard
Ugh I thought to myself
"Mom, Max yanked me out of bed!"

"Thanks Maximus." She called cheerily from down the hall.
I heard footsteps leave the room
I pushed myself up off the floor and sat up
Brushed my red hair out my face and stared at the floor
"Today's gonna be a long day" I told myself
And it was
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We went to the flea market and walked around
We didn't buy anything
It was just a family outing
Then we went to the grocery store to buy groceries for dinner tonight
We came home
Me and mom set the table while Max made dinner
I didn't trust Max's dinner

When I was twelve and Max was fifteen he decided to make burgers for the family
They looked great and smelled great
One bite into the burger and it just tasted really chewy
I looked inside the burger and frowned
"Max, these burgers are pink on the inside." I said sadly
"Really?"
"Yeah bro."
"Ugh I tried so hard!" He let out
"Aw come here Maximus." My mom said opening her arms out to him
He walked to her and she held him
I walked over and joined the hug
And that night we went out and had Chinese for dinner

Max made dirty rice and macaroni
Of course me and mom helped out
But Max got most of the credit because he did do most of the work
"Is it edible?" I asked.
"Sam!" My mother hissed at me
"It's edible Sam. Just try it, gosh"
So I did
I tried it
It tasted good
I nodded my head and looked at him
"Hey Max. This is good stuff here bro."
My mom reached over and patted him on the back
"Good job honey" she said and smiled at him
We finished dinner and talked throughout the conversation
"Alright you guys, I have work in the morning so I have to turn into bed," my mom said
She worked two jobs
She told us we didn't need jobs because we were going to focus on school

(Oh yeah I haven't mentioned it, but you've probably noticed
Me and Max have no dad
That's not really a story I want to get into
But just know we have no dad

He's not necessarily important to our journey so yeah)

"Alright mom, night love you. And we'll wash dishes," I said to her
"Alright night guys"
She went on to bed

"Yeah night Sam thanks," Max said patting my head
"Hey! You made dinner and we both ate it. Get your butt in here. You wash I dry."

That was our routine since forever
He always washed and I always dried
After we got all the dishes washed we went to our rooms
Our rooms were across the hall from each other
His to the right
Mine to the left

My door was the color of vomit green
Why vomit green?
I don't know
It just described how I felt about this place when we first moved here
I was twelve
Didn't like
I hated it
I wanted to throw up

So vomit green was the color I chose
There was a desk to the right of the door
Bed straight ahead
Dresser to the left
And the closet to the right of the room further down where my bed was
And a window to the right of my bed if you were laying down in it

As you entered my room it became a whole different atmosphere in here
My walls were black
All black
But on the ceiling we painted the moons
But I didn't want plain white moons on my ceiling
I wanted the ones that didn't know if they wanted to be pink, red, or orange
So that's what I got
Now yes they were a little sloppy because we weren't the perfect artists
But it was the thought of doing it as a family
And making it my own sanctuary
On the surrounding walls
Were glow in the dark stars
We didn't paint those
My mom found them in a store one day and bought them
She plastered them all over my room
When I came home later that day I hadn't noticed til I laid down in bed
I stared at them
Then I got up and went to touch them
It was nice I loved it
I loved the idea of sleeping with the moon and the stars

When I was fourteen my mom brought me a dream catcher to hang up in my room
I hung it over the head of my bed
It gave the room a more peaceful feel
Later on around fourteen and three quarters
I broke the dreamcatcher in two pieces
But I still left it to hung
Just a sign that my dreams were as broken as I was
And I wasn't scared of any dream
A dreamcatcher was for assurance

My bed wasn't fancy
Didn't have the bed veils on it or anything
Nothing special
But my bed was my favorite hello and
Hardest goodbye

I got undressed out of my school clothes
I slapped on a red T-shirt that was probably Max's because it was too big for me
And some sesame street pajama pants
I braided my hair to the side
Like Katniss from The Hunger Games wears her hair
My hair was just shoulder length

I crawled into bed
And caught up on my zzz's

AN.
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