there's nothing left for me in this life. I've tried so hard but to no avail. As I gazed blankly at the handful of pills in my fragile,pale hand. Memories of him replayed itself in my head. I can't live a life mourning over the past but it's been months and I still can't get him out my head. I gave up on everything and I can no longer find the motivation to get me back on track. Whenever I see a couple, flashes of what me and him could have continued to be flashed in my head. I can't say that I've not lived my life for I have had my first kiss, my first love and finally my first heartbreak. People may call me a fool for giving my life away so easily but I find that it's my choice and who are they to try and change it. Many hold life dear in their hearts and are too attached to end it but when there's no happiness in your life, no inspiration; nothing. How can one live life? I am now only present in life, not living it. Seeing but not realising, alive but barely breathing Detached to the real world, I now breeze through life reminiscing the past memories and events, relishing in it. The past is in the past and I no longer have anything that I am passionate about.
Taking a deep breath.My eyes fluttered closed as I downed the handfulls of pill. I grabbed my water bottle and flushed them down my body and with my mind filled with images of what could have been but have not, tears welled in my eyes as I finally found solace. My mind felt hazy and I couldn't feel my limbs. I collapsed on the floor and as I took my last breath, a faint smile reached my lips as I felt my entire system shutting down. " free", I thought. I was finally free.
YOU ARE READING
if only you stayed
Short Storyyou left me behind as if we were strangers "if what we had was real how could you be fine?"
