Part Of The Story (A Phan Story)

Chapter Eight

Chris's POV

I drew circles in Phil's back trying to console him. We walked through the cold rain to the flat I shared with PJ, and Phil sobbed quietly on my shoulder. I didn't even care that he was soaking my already-wet favorite t-shirt. His sobs slowed down and he started to breathe evenly.

"Phil." His tear stained face looks up at me attentive. My lips came in contact with his and I moaned with pleasure. I've been waiting for this forever. He started to kiss me back and we stayed like that for a while.

"W-Why?" He stuttered and looked at me flabbergasted.

"Because I love you." I looked at him to see any reaction. He looked... Hurt.

"Dan said that he loved me also. And he broke my heart." I looked at his helplessly sad face and my heart sank.

"Just forget about Dan!" He was paying full attention to me now. "If he truly loves you, he wouldn't have kissed Pj!" And I really meant that. I felt bad to use Dan as a reason to get closer to Phil. It sucked, but my heart was on the line too.

------> The Next Day <------

Phil had slept on m bed and I slept on the couch. I went in an he was sleeping so soundly. His ebony hair was curly from the pillow and his mouth was slightly open.

"Philly! Wake up!" I gently shook his shoulder until his bright blue eyes met mine. I saw all the damage that Dan had made. Red puffy eyes with a sunken look.

We ate cereal and watched the latest episode of Adventure Time that we had missed the day before.

Later on, I got Phil's stuff from his flat. And he agreed to stay with me for a couple days. Turns out, Pj had the same idea. He came without a word and silently took some of his belongings. I couldn't help but notice Phil glaring at Pj. Pj... He looked so remorselful. My heart starting beating faster and I was confused. It's jus Pj. So why does my heart yearn for him when I love Phil?

I still couldn't forgive him for what he did.

Phil’s POV

Dan.

I woke up with a start, surprised to see that i wasn't in my room and Totoro and Lion wrent here to greet me. I sat up and saw that I was in Chris's room. I felt at ease knowing that I didnt have to see Dan and go through all that pain again. I wonder what he's doing now.  Forget him, I thought. 

He doesnt love you.

I ate breakfast with Chris and he got my stuff from Da and I's flat. 

Pj also came and got some of his stuff. That meant that Dan wanted him to stay. He wanted Pj and not me... Why? I'm never goof enough for ANYONE. Even Chris. I know he doesnt genuinely love me; he's jut saying that to cheer me up.

I ran into the bathroom and took out the scissors that I hid in my Vans. I parted the blades and brought it down on my forearm. I closed my eyes and let the balde give me a long wide cut. I let myself bleed out until I felt drowsy and passed out. If no one wants me...

Dan's POV

I had a bad feeling. A very very bad one. The whole spine-tingling feeling and everything. I looked at Pj alarmed. He looked so gulity. He should. So should I.

I only let him stay, because itd be too awkward with Phil.

Dont get me wrong. I love Phil.

But I think I love Pj also.

Who do I love more?!

If I loved the first one then I wouldnt have fallen for the second one. Right?

Phil. I NEED to get to him!

"Pj! Im going out for a bit!" His head popped out of the living room.

"Can I come with?" I gave in when he gave me his cutest puppy dog face.

We walked to Chris's flat and I sharply rapped on the door.

"What do you want?" Wow. We went from best friends to enemies in a matter of days. That hurts, honestly.

"C-Can we see Phil? Please." I felt exhausted and over with everything/

"He doesnt want to see you." Chris put so much venom in his voice that I flinched.

"Just please." I had enough  and pushed back Chris. "Phil? Phil!" I ran into the bathroom and I almost passed out by the sight of so much blood.

Phil's pale face had impossibly got even paler, amd there was blood all over his forearm. "Phil!" His seemingly lifeless eyes fluttered open and my heart just about broke into a million pieces.

I had done that to Phil. ME. Pj called an ambulance and they sloly took him away.

My tears wouldnt stop all the way to the hospital. I should be in that place, not Phil.

We ran (mostly me) to the front desk and asked for Phil's room number.

"242." The lady looked at my tears amd my hobbit hair judgingly.

I ran into the lift and rushind into Phils room. I stopped at the door, staring at his pale body and blacnk blue eyes staring at nothing.

Oh my God, what if- No, no dont think that way Dan!

It looked like his dyed blackhair was out of place with his creamy skin. He had lifless eyes but the machine beat steadily. His heart beat a little faster when he saw me in the doorframe. Wow, way to go Dan. You endanger his life just by being here.

"D-Dan?" His voice was low and soft.

"Y-Yeah, P-Phil?" I ran to him and hugged him, never wanting to let him go.

"I'm so sorry." His piercing blue eyes met my soft brown eyes.

"What's there to be sorry about?!"

"This. You. I'm not good enough for you." A new set of tars sparng out as U saw his skinny frame and heard his sorrowful words.

"Don't you EVER think that Philip!" I held him tighter and he lay his head on my shoulder. "Remember when I said I'd love you forever?" He nodded. "I meant that, and I still do." He gave me a look that read 'What about Pj?'

"I've never loved anyone more than you Philip Michael Lester." We embraced for a while until the nurse came in and said Phil had to take hid meds. They allowed me to stay with him. We texted all day although we were next to each other, and we talked like how we used to when were sitting on opposite sides of the couch. 

'I love you forever, Daniel James Howell.'

I fell asleep with my head on his, sitting on the chair next to the bed. It's times like these that make me never want to leave. But I have to, for Phil.

A/N 

Hallo! :D Sorry, I havent uploaded in a while. I'm horrible. :( I'll put up another chapter up tomorroq. I've also decided to upload every Friday. I'm going graduatuon shopping tomorrow. Yaaay! Kay bai! :D