Dan had written on, crumpled up, threw out, and tore up about 18 pieces of paper. They all later scattered around and inside his trash bin. He groaned. There's no point.
•••
Phil was only slightly shocked. It made since. Connor always hung out with Troye. They went over to each other's houses all the time. And Dan did call out Connor for using Phil to get 'someone' jealous. I guess it worked.
What about Tyler though. They had seemed so happy. Like they knew the meaning of love. Did this mean Troye was cheating too? No way, Troye wouldn't do that... would he?
Phil was too confused to think about it. He grabbed his space jacket and headed into the London air. He needed a Starbucks, badly.
He walked in, taking off his hood. He order his mocha frappe and sat at a near by table.
He looked down at the yellow table and sighed. There was so much in his head. He needed relief.
He walked out and over to the park where he first met Dan. He remembered it really well.
•••
"Hey give it back" a young boy called out. He had curled brown hair and cinnamon eyes.
Phil looked over, the older kids laughed shoving the kid into a swing. The boy fell backwards and into the woodchips. He hissed in pain. Phil rushed forward and punched one of the older boys in the stomach and grabbed a small journal from his hand that had the name 'Daniel' on it. He handed it to the bullied boy and turned to the other to kids.
"Leave him alone" Phil said angrily and the boys ran at the sight of their friend groaning in pain. Phil turned to look at 'Daniel'
He smiled pulling the boy up and dusting the wood chips off of him. "I'm Philip, Phil Lester" He put out his hand.
"Daniel Howell, I prefer Dan though" Dan said quietly. His face was slightly puffy and red. But he gave Phil a smile that showed his dimples. Phil smiled back.
"I have some money with me from my mom, you wanna get some ice cream at the shop down the street?" Dan slowly nodded. So the two byys walked down the street and became friends.
•••
Phil sighed, he wished he could go back to that time. They were 14 when Phil had come out to Dan. Dan had acted as if he was a homophob. Phil remembered that moment too.
•••
"Dan... I need to tell you something." Phil said quietly as they were just laying in his room. Dan looked up at Phil who was laying off of his bed.
"Yeah?" Dan asked.
"I-I'm gay" Phil mumbled. But Dan heard. He shot up and looked disgusted.
"What? Dude, I let you touch me, I've spent the night here, did you like jack off while I slept?" Dan asked in a slightly rambling tone. Phil shook his head quickly.
"No way we're just friends, I'd never do that"
Dan scoffed, " We are not friends anymore you weirdo, you're lucky if I don't beat you up tomorrow at school you faggot!"
•••
Dan had beaten him up the next day at school and called him out in front of everyone. That's when he became friends with Mercadies. She told him that Dan shouldn't bother him while she's around. And even now that rule still stands. But now Dan and Phil had kissed, they had something at that party, and both confessed to loving eachother. It was no secret. They couldn't be separated when they were kids. And even though they hated eachother at school a few months ago they still had to see eachother once a day to assure themselves they still cared enough to hate the other. In a weird way, they had loved each other, in a hateful way.
