Love isnt real

the truth

Authors note: sorry for not update it sooner!!!!!!!!

I looked at his blue eyes getting lost in them. Wondering how I feel about all of this and this whole situation. I want to tell him so many things, be able to trust him but I know in my heart I cant trust anyone. I cant put myself out there to get hurt again I cant let anyone break this shield thats surrounding my heart.

" Nobody" I replay uncertain of what to say

" You actually expect me to believe that" he said getting closer to me I can feel his cool breath on my face

" I don't care if you believe me or not its the truth"

" Why can't you tell me?" he said stepping back

" Why should I trust! first you practically dump our entire friendship because I talked to some girl you didn't like, you ignored me for what seemed like forever, you kissed me and expected me to let it go! So you tell me why should I trust you, you seem to be the person breaking me" I said looking straight into his blue eyes.

" Because I care"

" No you don't! You if you actually did care you wouldn't have left me in the first place! lets not forget look at the place we are in right know. You are in a police station "

" I know" He said looking down like he was ashamed " You don't understand Casey your to good for me I've been arrested you don't deserve to be held back by me" 

" What are you trying to say Miky?"

" I'm saying that I don't want to ignore you but I have to"

" Why the hell do you think you have to" I ask with my eyes getting watery

" Because I don't want to hurt you"

" You alread have" I said walking out of the room not looking back

When I finally got to my car I let in all out, all of the tears that have been held back for who knows how long. Miky has hurt me he was mean and rude then he thinks he can make it all better by saying that he cares about me. If he actually cared about me he would have never left me. He would have never kissed me. I know that he's playing me trying to toment my feelings but i could tell he was trying to hold somthing back. Like there was soomething he was not telling. Someone was going to bail Miky out or come and pick him up eventully but I know I'm not going to be the one to do it.

After a long car ride of thinking I finally got home the funny thing is I spent so much  time in the parking lot its already 3'o clock. I steped out of the car just wanting to be in the warmness of my bed an forget about everything that happned in todays events. I've been hurt to much already by Miky and him.

**** Flashback 1 years ago****

There was a really load kncking on the door, so being the stupid person that I was I went to go open in. 

" Hey babe" Peter said 

Peter was by boyfrined that I was hopelessly in love with at the time he never pressured me into doing anything that I wasn't ready for. He was polite, sweet, cute and everything I could want in a boyfrined. There was something wrong with Peter that night he was oviously extremly wasted.

" Umm hi Peter " I ask unsure of what do do

" I need to ask you a question" he asked stumbling into my house lucky for me my mom was working late that night so nobody was home (note sarcasm). 

" What is it?" I ask starting  to get scared with his recklessniss

" Why haven't we had sex?"

" Peter I'm not ready and you said you would never pressure me into having something i'm not ready for" 

" Well gues what I'm sick of it!" he said getting dangeroulsy close to

" P-P-Peter what are you doing?" I asked terrified, he slamed me into the wall and stated kissing my neck roughly 

" Your a selfish bitch you know that!" He said slaming me into the wall once again, only this time my head hit the wall

" Peter stop please" I said crying 

" No not eveything you want to get but this time for once i'm going to get somthing I want!"

**** end of flashback***

I stared to cry again remembering all the pain I went through that night. I never told anyone because who would believe me?

This is the man who hurt me